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i think my sisters would happily testify to how a cow's stamina is better than mine. i hate working out, it always makes me feel like i'm dying or something. but i need to shed some weight, so i started early morning jog today, and hopefully i'd be able to keep it up for the rest of the days before i go back to malaysia. and probably going to the gym every other evening too, and eat as little as is possible.

i'm actually comfortable with how i am, i don't like skinny-ness and i don't like being pushed into other's definition of beautiful. i just want to be me. and none of the grown up sisters are skinny, we're all built this way, it's the genes. but people keep going 'atiq...i think you've gained weight' and i'm tired of it, so i'm going to just lose some weight so people won't keep saying annoying things to me.

i'm irritated with myself for getting worked up with what others say.


right, kay. i think i want to clean the toilet today. bai.