i'm really scared

doakan atiq pass exam...atiq takut, takut sangat...

i feel so messed up, i'm terrified, i can't focus...i want to run away but i can't. i feel lost and i don't want time to pass me by. i want to freeze everything and feel nothing. i can't face the uncertain future, it scares me.

i want to stay here and be a medical student.

i want to be a second year and go for visits to my patient's house and stick my nose around the GP clinic. i want to learn Pathology, and Pharmacology. i want to hate having to know all the drugs.

please, please~