an entry for a dying blog.

hi guys.

life's been a roller coaster these past couple of weeks. like seriously, i don't even know where to begin. right before i went to Cambodia, i actually freaking cried at Stesen KTM Padang Jawa because things got out of hand and i didn't have someone i trusted enough to talk to. it can drive one crazy, going through rough times but having to pretend everything is A-okay.

Cambodia drove my mind away from reality. it made me realize how small and how meaningless are the things i spent my tears for. these people...these people won't even flinch if they're in my shoes. their story inspired us all so, so, much. read it here; www.ponderingsofasearchingmind.blogspot.com

it's about our bestest company in Cambodia - Roly, a 5th year medical student (they study medicine for EIGHT years there). This guy is a dream come true. He's everything every girl wants a guy to be, and so much more.

i'm okay now. i still cry from time to time because i'm an Atiqah and that's how i'm designed to function, but i'm coping. recuperating.

i really don't know what to say about Cambodia...the experience was...insane. i'm sorry, i just don't think i know of a better word to describe it. it's an irony that our tagline was 'Enlightening the hopes of Cambodia', but i think it was us. it was us that got enlightened.

i left my heart there. Wany said she left her heart there, and Shidot said he left his heart there with this little kid he fell in love with. Shidot memang gile, siap fikir dah macam mana nak bawak masuk budak tu balik Malaysia and jadi anak angkat die.

i really get how Angelina Jolie ended up taking Maddox home, and why she kept returning there. the people there, they're...different.

i've to go now, Didie and Adek panggil main badminton.

bye guys. be thankful for what you have. for all we know, we ALL could have been a Cambodian child beggar.

Atiqah
sayang and rindu korang.