i got SO many things to say but i have no idea how to say it. i suck at blogging. wait. scratch that. i suck at communicating.
anyway i just have to say this; i think muda-mudi nowadays waste waaayyy too many brain cells on their love life 'issues'. i mean. come on people, there are more pressing issues in the world to think of rather than worrying about your boyfriend going out with that girl AGAIN, or your girlfriend's mad at you because you watch too much football and now you're pissed off because you think shes a control freak, or worrying about your boyfriend being 'too friendly' with other girls, or whatever. i mean, seriously. get over it.
wake up people. there is more to this world than just yourselves and your loved ones. ignorance is NOT bliss.
i'm not in a good mood.
sorry.
i'll remember not to write a post when i'm not in a good mood next time. promise.
Monday, December 31, 2007
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
okay so i dont really write this one...so it doesnt count, right?
look what i found on Friendster; a bulletin about me by my sister :)
Can you answer 51 questions about the 1st person on your top friends list?
Don’t change your top friend.
1) What’s their name?
- sorg je la. Atique.
2) Does he or she have a
boyfriend/girlfriend??
- nahh...
* i like the tone of that answer - you make it sound like its impossible for me to have one, i like it! thanks! (haha...seriously!)
3)Do you get along with this person
all the time?
- yes. my whole life.
* yeap yeap
4) How old is the person?
- 20 yrs and 23 days.
5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?
- goreng ayam or telur camtu ade kot.
* haha. i can cook a lot of stuff now, okay!! even nasik lemak, nasik kerabu, and...stuff. hoho. i'll cook em fer you one day :)
6) Is this person taller than you?
- LOL. she thinks petite is cute.
* me and 99% if the homo sapiensssss!
7) Have you ever kissed this person?
- err... ade kot. haha...
9) Are you related to this person?
- we're sisters.
10) Are you really close to him/her?
- YES.used to have late night chats
before we sleep.
* i miss those times :(
11) Nickname?
- tiq tok a ding dong.
* very funny.
13) How many times do you talk to this
person in a week?
- used to be endlessly. now, with her
halfway across the globe, maybe no more
then thrice.
14) Do you think they will repost this?
- probably.
* :D correct! just that its on Blogger instead of Friendster ~ and urm - i didnt replace it with my own answers, hoho.
15) Could you live with this person?
- of course. been living with her most
of my life.
16) Why is this person your number 1?
- i saw her first when i set my featured.
* ahhhh. i was on the illusion 'twas because i'm your favourite person!! sheeesh.
18) How long have you known this
person??
- since the day i came to this world.
19) Have you ever been to the mall
with this person?
- duhh...
20) Have you ever had a sleepover with
this person?
- like almost everynight?
* haha. we share the same room AND the same bed in White Villa.
21) If you ever moved away would you
miss this person?
- now even.
* :(
23) Have you ever done something
really stupid or illegal with this
person?
- yes. sneaked out to go to tokwe's when
we were kids.
* haha..thats the jahat-est we ever get back then. i'm a good older sister, i dont give bad influence to my adik2. hee.
24) Do you know everything about this
person?
- i think. hard to know her latest
updates now tho.
* nobody knows everything about another person, Mr. Survey. everybody has secrets.
25) Would you date this person’s
siblings?
- hers are also mine. besides, she (also
me) has only sisters.
26) Have you ever made something with
this person?
- not sure. cudnt even remember last
time we went out together.
* do you remember that time when we tried to 'invent' our own recipe at Ketani, the one where we threw in everything from eggs to veg in a wok and stir fried it?? hahaha we were sooo clueless. (dont worry people, nobody ate it - it turned out sooo bad it ended up in the bin)
29) Have you gone skinny dipping with
this person?
- haha... ironic. even tho we're
sisters, i wont.
* haha. does skinny dipping in the kolah in our house in Kelate when we were small counts?? Kakak was sooo mad at us!
33) Have you ever worn this person’s
clothes?
- like all the time? =) but we're of
different sizes now.
* yeah thats right - rub it on my face!
34) Have you and your person made
up a hand shake?
- nope. wutever for?
35) If it was “freaky friday” would u?
- geez... no thanks. wudnt want to be
drowned with tonnes of medic-related books.
* yeah..thanks for the sisterly support, lil sis.
36) Have you ever heard this person
sing?
- u know wut, it starts to annoy me now
dat i hardly remember last time we did
anything together.
* huhu, tell me about it!
38) Do you and this person have a
saying?
- think so. really, i hardly remember
anything from the past but i'm sure we
had since we really talked a lot.
* boys are not to be trusted, especially high school boys --> i think this might have been one offit.
39) Do you know this persons myspace
password?
- i know her email's.
* huh?? no you dont!!!?! right?? right...???!!??
41) Have you and this person ever
gotten into a fight that lasted more
than 2 months?
- it's not possible.
44.) Have you and this person gone
clubbing?
- last time we saw each other, we're
both under-age. but i doubt she wud now.
* huhu. u better not go clubbing, missy! Kakak, dont take her with you okay?
45) Do you know how to make this
person feel happy?
- yeah. we entertain each other.
* :D
46) Do you and this person talk a lot?
- yes. a LOT indeed. we cud just talk
about anything and everything.
* isnt that the definition of sisterhood or something?~ :)
47) Do you like this person?
- why else d'u think i put her in my
featured?
* grins
48) Has this person yelled at you?
- 'course. zillions times.
* heyyy. i dont even remember the last time i yelled at you! mustve been aaaaages ago?~!
49) Have you and this person got into
a fist fight?
- we are prim and proper ladies. haha~
* ho-ho-ho
50) Do you want to go out with this
person??
- yes YES.
* Ops, course i wanna go out with you too, like really really, but i think the question meant it a different way. oh well.
51) Do you want to be friends with
them forever?
- do i have any choice? haha... air
dicincang takkan putus
* smiles
that's my sister - Tengku Sofiah Aishah, age 16.
i miss her. too much. :(
(yeah yeah...shes a lot taller than me. whaaaattever :p )
Can you answer 51 questions about the 1st person on your top friends list?
Don’t change your top friend.
1) What’s their name?
- sorg je la. Atique.
2) Does he or she have a
boyfriend/girlfriend??
- nahh...
* i like the tone of that answer - you make it sound like its impossible for me to have one, i like it! thanks! (haha...seriously!)
3)Do you get along with this person
all the time?
- yes. my whole life.
* yeap yeap
4) How old is the person?
- 20 yrs and 23 days.
5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?
- goreng ayam or telur camtu ade kot.
* haha. i can cook a lot of stuff now, okay!! even nasik lemak, nasik kerabu, and...stuff. hoho. i'll cook em fer you one day :)
6) Is this person taller than you?
- LOL. she thinks petite is cute.
* me and 99% if the homo sapiensssss!
7) Have you ever kissed this person?
- err... ade kot. haha...
9) Are you related to this person?
- we're sisters.
10) Are you really close to him/her?
- YES.used to have late night chats
before we sleep.
* i miss those times :(
11) Nickname?
- tiq tok a ding dong.
* very funny.
13) How many times do you talk to this
person in a week?
- used to be endlessly. now, with her
halfway across the globe, maybe no more
then thrice.
14) Do you think they will repost this?
- probably.
* :D correct! just that its on Blogger instead of Friendster ~ and urm - i didnt replace it with my own answers, hoho.
15) Could you live with this person?
- of course. been living with her most
of my life.
16) Why is this person your number 1?
- i saw her first when i set my featured.
* ahhhh. i was on the illusion 'twas because i'm your favourite person!! sheeesh.
18) How long have you known this
person??
- since the day i came to this world.
19) Have you ever been to the mall
with this person?
- duhh...
20) Have you ever had a sleepover with
this person?
- like almost everynight?
* haha. we share the same room AND the same bed in White Villa.
21) If you ever moved away would you
miss this person?
- now even.
* :(
23) Have you ever done something
really stupid or illegal with this
person?
- yes. sneaked out to go to tokwe's when
we were kids.
* haha..thats the jahat-est we ever get back then. i'm a good older sister, i dont give bad influence to my adik2. hee.
24) Do you know everything about this
person?
- i think. hard to know her latest
updates now tho.
* nobody knows everything about another person, Mr. Survey. everybody has secrets.
25) Would you date this person’s
siblings?
- hers are also mine. besides, she (also
me) has only sisters.
26) Have you ever made something with
this person?
- not sure. cudnt even remember last
time we went out together.
* do you remember that time when we tried to 'invent' our own recipe at Ketani, the one where we threw in everything from eggs to veg in a wok and stir fried it?? hahaha we were sooo clueless. (dont worry people, nobody ate it - it turned out sooo bad it ended up in the bin)
29) Have you gone skinny dipping with
this person?
- haha... ironic. even tho we're
sisters, i wont.
* haha. does skinny dipping in the kolah in our house in Kelate when we were small counts?? Kakak was sooo mad at us!
33) Have you ever worn this person’s
clothes?
- like all the time? =) but we're of
different sizes now.
* yeah thats right - rub it on my face!
34) Have you and your person made
up a hand shake?
- nope. wutever for?
35) If it was “freaky friday” would u?
- geez... no thanks. wudnt want to be
drowned with tonnes of medic-related books.
* yeah..thanks for the sisterly support, lil sis.
36) Have you ever heard this person
sing?
- u know wut, it starts to annoy me now
dat i hardly remember last time we did
anything together.
* huhu, tell me about it!
38) Do you and this person have a
saying?
- think so. really, i hardly remember
anything from the past but i'm sure we
had since we really talked a lot.
* boys are not to be trusted, especially high school boys --> i think this might have been one offit.
39) Do you know this persons myspace
password?
- i know her email's.
* huh?? no you dont!!!?! right?? right...???!!??
41) Have you and this person ever
gotten into a fight that lasted more
than 2 months?
- it's not possible.
44.) Have you and this person gone
clubbing?
- last time we saw each other, we're
both under-age. but i doubt she wud now.
* huhu. u better not go clubbing, missy! Kakak, dont take her with you okay?
45) Do you know how to make this
person feel happy?
- yeah. we entertain each other.
* :D
46) Do you and this person talk a lot?
- yes. a LOT indeed. we cud just talk
about anything and everything.
* isnt that the definition of sisterhood or something?~ :)
47) Do you like this person?
- why else d'u think i put her in my
featured?
* grins
48) Has this person yelled at you?
- 'course. zillions times.
* heyyy. i dont even remember the last time i yelled at you! mustve been aaaaages ago?~!
49) Have you and this person got into
a fist fight?
- we are prim and proper ladies. haha~
* ho-ho-ho
50) Do you want to go out with this
person??
- yes YES.
* Ops, course i wanna go out with you too, like really really, but i think the question meant it a different way. oh well.
51) Do you want to be friends with
them forever?
- do i have any choice? haha... air
dicincang takkan putus
* smiles
that's my sister - Tengku Sofiah Aishah, age 16.
i miss her. too much. :(
(yeah yeah...shes a lot taller than me. whaaaattever :p )
update, UPDATE!
it's meee blogging again (i know, i know...i said i wasnt going to make another entry until 2008~ i just have soo many things stuck in my brain that i need to let out!)
i have a lot of things to say in this post, so bear with me okayh?~
it seems like a lot of people misunderstood what i said in the previous vlog.. i dont know, maybe it was just me mashing confusing arrangements of words together and calling em sentences, as usual. well anyways. i am NOT shutting down this blog until April people, i just wont be writing as much..kay?
alriighty. next is on....my winter trip! it was AWESOME! i met a whole bunch of ultra random people!~ here are the pics -
thats me, Kak Fariza and Mimi the Head Girl...friends from the
best primary school ever, SRK Zainab (1)
and this is Intan who i havent met in aaaaages..i was SO shocked bumping
into her on the bus in Nottingham. She was Vice Head Girl when we were
in ZS...haha. kelakar gile Ketua + Penolong Ketua Pengawas dua2 there.
and this is me pretending to be taller than Izyan the not-so-random girl from Galway =)
and this is the pretty Zaza from Aberdeen, who i've met once before, and is now
a friend i'm really glad i have =)
and of course...the not-random-at-all bunch of people i hang out with since forever.
love you ladies to bits!
okay okay so u're wondering why are there sooo many people at the background. i was actually at this program thats held annually, its called Perhimpunan Musim Sejuk/Winter Retreat, where a lot of Malaysians studying everywhere in the UK/Eire gather together to learn..agama? i hate to say it that way because it sounds so secular-istical but i've no idea how to say it anyway else.
okay Atiqah speak some sense, nobody's getting what you're trying to say.
i made a whole LOT of new friends and gained SO much from the program, i can't wait to go for next year's!
moving ooonnn...there is, of course, the story of the cold freezing winter and it's highlight - (nope..not Christmas) BOXING DAY! woohoo. last year i spent a LOT of money buying stuff for these SIX ultra-demanding creatures i call sisters. hehe just kidding. they werent demanding, i was the one trying really hard to buy THE perfect gift for each of them. but this year, seeing that i wont be going back home in the Summer, i dont have to buy gifts for anyone (except myself,of course..ngeh2) until the next boxing day sale. so i wont be spending so much money, and i can shop with minimal pressure, hoho. so i'm planning to buy myself a bunch of stuff, them being :
4. a pair of jeans because i wore my favourite one waay too much and it is now damaged beyond belief.
5. a huge handbag thats big enough to throw in a bejillion stuff so i can use it for college.
(see?? i DO know the cool stuff to buy, okayy =p)
well thats all i guess. oooohh, by the way - i bought em!! the bday prezzies for meself!! wheeee~!
i bought a white watch, because i lost the black one i had (surprise, surprise). i reeaaaallly like it, though it can be a bit too dressy and unsuitable for things like, the gym, for example. and i bought a purple purse to replace the pink Guess purse i had because...well. it's about time i replaced it anyways. the pink purse brings back painful memories that i wish not to remember.
anywayyyyy.
its getting colder and colder and colder with each passing day, and i know that it is now full-blown winter because:
and oooh - a HUGE announcement : i no longer use Atique704 for YM-ing purposes. to all friends: fear not, i have not Ignored you or made myself Appear Permanently Invisible to you.. i simply am not using it anymore. you can always e-mail me if there is any pressing issues to tell/talk about. i'm sorry for the inconvenience that this may cause..but to Mr. MCS-President, don't worry, if there's online meetings, you can just text me and i'll log on to that YM, okayh?~
okie doke. thats it i think. i'm calling it a night :) salam alaik.
xoxo, Atiqah
i have a lot of things to say in this post, so bear with me okayh?~
it seems like a lot of people misunderstood what i said in the previous vlog.. i dont know, maybe it was just me mashing confusing arrangements of words together and calling em sentences, as usual. well anyways. i am NOT shutting down this blog until April people, i just wont be writing as much..kay?
alriighty. next is on....my winter trip! it was AWESOME! i met a whole bunch of ultra random people!~ here are the pics -
thats me, Kak Fariza and Mimi the Head Girl...friends from thebest primary school ever, SRK Zainab (1)
and this is Intan who i havent met in aaaaages..i was SO shocked bumpinginto her on the bus in Nottingham. She was Vice Head Girl when we were
in ZS...haha. kelakar gile Ketua + Penolong Ketua Pengawas dua2 there.
and this is me pretending to be taller than Izyan the not-so-random girl from Galway =)
and this is the pretty Zaza from Aberdeen, who i've met once before, and is nowa friend i'm really glad i have =)
and of course...the not-random-at-all bunch of people i hang out with since forever.love you ladies to bits!
okay Atiqah speak some sense, nobody's getting what you're trying to say.
i made a whole LOT of new friends and gained SO much from the program, i can't wait to go for next year's!
moving ooonnn...there is, of course, the story of the cold freezing winter and it's highlight - (nope..not Christmas) BOXING DAY! woohoo. last year i spent a LOT of money buying stuff for these SIX ultra-demanding creatures i call sisters. hehe just kidding. they werent demanding, i was the one trying really hard to buy THE perfect gift for each of them. but this year, seeing that i wont be going back home in the Summer, i dont have to buy gifts for anyone (except myself,of course..ngeh2) until the next boxing day sale. so i wont be spending so much money, and i can shop with minimal pressure, hoho. so i'm planning to buy myself a bunch of stuff, them being :
- a mini heater from Argos
- used-for-hanging-washed-clothes thingamajic, i cant recall what it's called, whatvr. Also from Argos.
- a hand mixer .....alllssooo from Argos. haha.
4. a pair of jeans because i wore my favourite one waay too much and it is now damaged beyond belief.
5. a huge handbag thats big enough to throw in a bejillion stuff so i can use it for college.
(see?? i DO know the cool stuff to buy, okayy =p)
well thats all i guess. oooohh, by the way - i bought em!! the bday prezzies for meself!! wheeee~!
i bought a white watch, because i lost the black one i had (surprise, surprise). i reeaaaallly like it, though it can be a bit too dressy and unsuitable for things like, the gym, for example. and i bought a purple purse to replace the pink Guess purse i had because...well. it's about time i replaced it anyways. the pink purse brings back painful memories that i wish not to remember.
anywayyyyy.
its getting colder and colder and colder with each passing day, and i know that it is now full-blown winter because:
- i think i apply Vaseline on my lips like 17 times a day, and they still are beyond dry.
- i'm scared to slip out from the safety and warm-ness of my 15 tog duvet when i wake up in the morning.
- i shiver epileptic-style everytime i pray sebab basah lepas amek air smayang.
- i have to have my bedroom light on 24/7 because it seems like there never is any sunshine.
- when i wash my clothes, they take like a week to dry.
and oooh - a HUGE announcement : i no longer use Atique704 for YM-ing purposes. to all friends: fear not, i have not Ignored you or made myself Appear Permanently Invisible to you.. i simply am not using it anymore. you can always e-mail me if there is any pressing issues to tell/talk about. i'm sorry for the inconvenience that this may cause..but to Mr. MCS-President, don't worry, if there's online meetings, you can just text me and i'll log on to that YM, okayh?~
okie doke. thats it i think. i'm calling it a night :) salam alaik.
xoxo, Atiqah
Monday, December 10, 2007
Nurin Alert
its me blogging again.
I'm sure everyone in Malaysia and all Malaysians living overseas, be it in New Zealand, Australia, Indonesia, India, Russia, Ireland, Wales, Scotland, German, France, England....everywhere. everywhere. knows about the Nurin Jazlin case. I am glad by the fact that the Malaysians are still responding with so much passion and anger towards the case, and at the same time i am appalled by the rentetan peristiwa and crime cases that is becoming more and more horrifying, i can't help but wonder - what went wrong?
I myself have two little sisters back at home in Kelate, so i can almost feel how terrifying it must be for the parents in Malaysia..how hard it would be for them to balance safety and happiness for their young children. to safeguard and watch over them as much as possible, at the same time giving them a happy childhood with wonderful memories. i'm greatly relieved by the fact that Ayahnda is a pensioner - so he picks up and drops off Didie and KuZett everywhere - to the Abacos classes, to taekwondo lessons, to school, to kelas mengaji..~ but i feel for and worry about the children of busy parents who cycle or walk alone to school. what in the world happened to our beloved Malaysia that we have all these...these...i-dont-even-know-how-to-describe criminals?? even the word 'keji' seem almost angelic in comparison.
pulanglah kepada agama..~
i greatly respect the parents and family of Nurin Jazlin..they had been so strong going through this ujian dari Allah s.w.t. May they be rewarded for their strength and may Nurin rest in peace and safe and happy in the better and everlasting world of the afterlife.
anyways the main tujuan for this entry is to let everyone know that they're forming Nurin Alert in Malaysia - something like the Amber Alert they have in the states. it's a mass-media rapid activation for a lightning quick spread of info everytime a child goes missing. to the people in Malaysia and to bloggers with a high hit count (note: i'm not counting myself) i hope you can spread the news on this; the more people aware of it, the better.
for more info on this just Google 'Nurin Alert' and loads of info will pour out.
it's almost winter break so i'll prolly write just one more entry after this and then i'll be off from the cyber world for a few weeks - don't miss me too much kay!~ heee :D
assalamualaikum..~
xoxo
Atiqah
I'm sure everyone in Malaysia and all Malaysians living overseas, be it in New Zealand, Australia, Indonesia, India, Russia, Ireland, Wales, Scotland, German, France, England....everywhere. everywhere. knows about the Nurin Jazlin case. I am glad by the fact that the Malaysians are still responding with so much passion and anger towards the case, and at the same time i am appalled by the rentetan peristiwa and crime cases that is becoming more and more horrifying, i can't help but wonder - what went wrong?
I myself have two little sisters back at home in Kelate, so i can almost feel how terrifying it must be for the parents in Malaysia..how hard it would be for them to balance safety and happiness for their young children. to safeguard and watch over them as much as possible, at the same time giving them a happy childhood with wonderful memories. i'm greatly relieved by the fact that Ayahnda is a pensioner - so he picks up and drops off Didie and KuZett everywhere - to the Abacos classes, to taekwondo lessons, to school, to kelas mengaji..~ but i feel for and worry about the children of busy parents who cycle or walk alone to school. what in the world happened to our beloved Malaysia that we have all these...these...i-dont-even-know-how-to-describe criminals?? even the word 'keji' seem almost angelic in comparison.
pulanglah kepada agama..~
i greatly respect the parents and family of Nurin Jazlin..they had been so strong going through this ujian dari Allah s.w.t. May they be rewarded for their strength and may Nurin rest in peace and safe and happy in the better and everlasting world of the afterlife.
anyways the main tujuan for this entry is to let everyone know that they're forming Nurin Alert in Malaysia - something like the Amber Alert they have in the states. it's a mass-media rapid activation for a lightning quick spread of info everytime a child goes missing. to the people in Malaysia and to bloggers with a high hit count (note: i'm not counting myself) i hope you can spread the news on this; the more people aware of it, the better.
for more info on this just Google 'Nurin Alert' and loads of info will pour out.
it's almost winter break so i'll prolly write just one more entry after this and then i'll be off from the cyber world for a few weeks - don't miss me too much kay!~ heee :D
assalamualaikum..~
xoxo
Atiqah
Saturday, December 8, 2007
oooohhh.
i took two mefac tabs insteado one. i'm dead. dead dead dead. i put on minyak cap kapak like its leave on conditioner. headache go AWAY.
as i'm writing this, i can hear sayup2 lagu 'Pencinta Wanita' versi loghat Kelate from Dayah's room and voices of perempuan2 senget; Dayah's "aku memey minak kokre tinooo" and Niesa's gelak pecah perut.
adoooii. itula sapall..macammane Atiq tak pening? how, howwwww??~
as i'm writing this, i can hear sayup2 lagu 'Pencinta Wanita' versi loghat Kelate from Dayah's room and voices of perempuan2 senget; Dayah's "aku memey minak kokre tinooo" and Niesa's gelak pecah perut.
adoooii. itula sapall..macammane Atiq tak pening? how, howwwww??~
mencemar duli ke MP
i'm currently having a bad headache. but i cant lie down because i just had dinner. i didnt wanna have dinner because i wanna lie down, but i had to have dinner coz i wanna take mefac tabs for my migrain, and i have gastritis so i cant risk taking any nsaid without food. hoho. i shall not complain having these penyakits. they are obviously nothing compared to the bejillion other worse diseases other people have.
nways i just got back from MP. it was a nice day out i'd say, Kak Rose and Nad were a lot of fun. Kak Rose nak belanje tengok movie as a birthday treat for me (hee) and since Enchanted wont be out until the 14th (diamlarrr orang kat Malaysia. comment2 yang mengandungi perkataan 'loser' takkan diapprove...hehe) we ended up watching 'The Assasination of Jessee James by the Coward Robert Something-atiq-tak-ingat'..the one with Brad Pitt and a guy yang disyaki related to Ben Affleck innit. only thing i can say about the movie is ssaikooooo (dibaca dengan tone yang sering digunakan oleh Dayah Hamdi). we shopped around for a bit before and after the movie.. Kak Rose bought a top in Gasoline and Nad bought a top in Debenhams and i bought....nothing.
the jacket i fell in love with in Next. sighs. its 90-friggin-Euros.
(i know it look the same with the black one i have...tak kire nak jugak uwaa)
sighs. i dont knowwwww what my problem is. i just cant find anything that i like! well, i do...but all of them seem to be above 90euros. Nad jokingly said i'm high maintenance. i am nooooottt. i suppose i'll just have to be patient and wait for the christmas sale to start. i was sooo kecewa sebab tak beli ape2...but at least i got a birthday prezzie from Kak Rose and Kak Cikin...i got another Bubuuuu~~~ wheeeeee!~ suke suke!
and of course, before going back we went to get coffee. ahhh. the simple joy of having brain freeze from drinking mochachillos on a cold winter evening. it was raining when we walked out to the bus stop.
so.
long day out + coffee + rain = migrain.
but it was worth it :D
thanks for today...sayang Kak Rose and Nad!!~
xoxo
salam,
Atiqah *_*
nways i just got back from MP. it was a nice day out i'd say, Kak Rose and Nad were a lot of fun. Kak Rose nak belanje tengok movie as a birthday treat for me (hee) and since Enchanted wont be out until the 14th (diamlarrr orang kat Malaysia. comment2 yang mengandungi perkataan 'loser' takkan diapprove...hehe) we ended up watching 'The Assasination of Jessee James by the Coward Robert Something-atiq-tak-ingat'..the one with Brad Pitt and a guy yang disyaki related to Ben Affleck innit. only thing i can say about the movie is ssaikooooo (dibaca dengan tone yang sering digunakan oleh Dayah Hamdi). we shopped around for a bit before and after the movie.. Kak Rose bought a top in Gasoline and Nad bought a top in Debenhams and i bought....nothing.
the jacket i fell in love with in Next. sighs. its 90-friggin-Euros.(i know it look the same with the black one i have...tak kire nak jugak uwaa)
sighs. i dont knowwwww what my problem is. i just cant find anything that i like! well, i do...but all of them seem to be above 90euros. Nad jokingly said i'm high maintenance. i am nooooottt. i suppose i'll just have to be patient and wait for the christmas sale to start. i was sooo kecewa sebab tak beli ape2...but at least i got a birthday prezzie from Kak Rose and Kak Cikin...i got another Bubuuuu~~~ wheeeeee!~ suke suke!
and of course, before going back we went to get coffee. ahhh. the simple joy of having brain freeze from drinking mochachillos on a cold winter evening. it was raining when we walked out to the bus stop.
so.
long day out + coffee + rain = migrain.
but it was worth it :D
thanks for today...sayang Kak Rose and Nad!!~
xoxo
salam,
Atiqah *_*
Friday, December 7, 2007
random rants.
its cooooOoldd. like seriously. if the heater community has pondans then this one in my room is definitely one of it. quoting ille, "ini bukan bilik. ini peti sejuk..freezer part."
i went to the library late this evening because i just realized that the Vander's Human Physio i borrowed is waayyy overdue. i am soo nyanyukk. i really thought the due date's next week or something. if not for the library notice i got in my ucc student email account i wouldnt have realized it. well anyhoo. it was raining like craaaaaazy when i got out, and it was already dark eventhough baru 4.30pm. the wind was just as mad so i had my specs smeared with rain so i can't really see anything. so i took my specs off, put my hood up, turned up my mp3 full blast and walked moodily down to campus to pay the expensive overdue fees.
by the time i got to the library i began to feel dizzy from walking without my specs on. note to ppl who doesnt know: i've full on astigmatism and migrain - so yeah i have headaches all the time. well anyways back to the library. i wanted to pay the fees and renew the loan, but i got Strict Miss Librarian instead of my usual favourite Mr Nice Librarian, so she wouldnt let me renew it, and she rambled on about short loans or returns machine or whatever, i cant really hear her because i had my mp3 (with noise cancellation - so i'm practically deaf to the outside sound once i put it on) to full blast. so i smiled, said thanks and walked robotically to the elevator up to Q+1 (they call it that instead of the usual '1st floor' and Q-1 instead of basement and Q instead of ground floor - weird Irish librarians) and to the usual shelf of physiology books (i got Vander's series number memorized..sighs. kesian tak? ade org nak hadiahkan Vander's kat Atiq?) grabbed another copy of Vander's and went down to the Borrowing area and checked the book out (grumpily).
it doesnt make any difffeeereennnce. she shouldve just given me the friggin book. i dont like Strict Miss Librarian. *hisssss*
so i got back home with a different copy of Vander's and brought my laptop down to the kitchen and looked up for a new recipe to try out. i settled on Ayam Serai Pedas Thai. it turned out great because i love Thai food. as usual my housemates said it was sedap but i dont know whether they're for real or they were just being nice, them being them.
tomorrow i've got a date to MP with Kak Rose...can't wait!~ (Nad, nak sebok skali tak??)
i went to the library late this evening because i just realized that the Vander's Human Physio i borrowed is waayyy overdue. i am soo nyanyukk. i really thought the due date's next week or something. if not for the library notice i got in my ucc student email account i wouldnt have realized it. well anyhoo. it was raining like craaaaaazy when i got out, and it was already dark eventhough baru 4.30pm. the wind was just as mad so i had my specs smeared with rain so i can't really see anything. so i took my specs off, put my hood up, turned up my mp3 full blast and walked moodily down to campus to pay the expensive overdue fees.
by the time i got to the library i began to feel dizzy from walking without my specs on. note to ppl who doesnt know: i've full on astigmatism and migrain - so yeah i have headaches all the time. well anyways back to the library. i wanted to pay the fees and renew the loan, but i got Strict Miss Librarian instead of my usual favourite Mr Nice Librarian, so she wouldnt let me renew it, and she rambled on about short loans or returns machine or whatever, i cant really hear her because i had my mp3 (with noise cancellation - so i'm practically deaf to the outside sound once i put it on) to full blast. so i smiled, said thanks and walked robotically to the elevator up to Q+1 (they call it that instead of the usual '1st floor' and Q-1 instead of basement and Q instead of ground floor - weird Irish librarians) and to the usual shelf of physiology books (i got Vander's series number memorized..sighs. kesian tak? ade org nak hadiahkan Vander's kat Atiq?) grabbed another copy of Vander's and went down to the Borrowing area and checked the book out (grumpily).
it doesnt make any difffeeereennnce. she shouldve just given me the friggin book. i dont like Strict Miss Librarian. *hisssss*
so i got back home with a different copy of Vander's and brought my laptop down to the kitchen and looked up for a new recipe to try out. i settled on Ayam Serai Pedas Thai. it turned out great because i love Thai food. as usual my housemates said it was sedap but i dont know whether they're for real or they were just being nice, them being them.
tomorrow i've got a date to MP with Kak Rose...can't wait!~ (Nad, nak sebok skali tak??)
Thursday, December 6, 2007
of intentions, outcomes, and misunderstandings.
i seem to be misunderstood all my life, all the time. ALL the time.
i was unhappy and frustrated. i just could not understand, WHY can't people get me? why wont they trust what i say? why would they believe all these stories told by other people about me, rather than accept my explanation about what actually happened? it gets to me, it caused me to grow up into an insecure young lady, and it made me this very sensitive person who cares greatly about other people's feelings. i become this person who says sorry all the time and i become this person who thinks about other's feelings before doing something. i become this person who notices small things about someone that makes him/her special, and this person who wants to see the brighter side of things and to think a better thought about a person. a person who doesnt judge another person by what other people say about them. a person who doesnt prefer to gossip or badmouth another.
all this time i thought my past has made me a better person. today, a friend told me otherwise.
it brings me back to the days when all my good intentions are misunderstood into jealousy, into mere evil-ness. into...anything except kindness. i dont know whether theres a huge BITCH sign on my forehead, or i merely look so bitchy that my friends just refuse to believe that i meant well and i want the best for them and that i care and...sighs.
its demotivating, y know. it makes me feel like maybe i should stop caring about...anything.
Niesa is already calling me heartless sekarang...kalau i stop caring, i'd prolly be...well i dunno. lungless or organless or soulless or whotever.
i never knew my caring and loving for a person can be troublesome to the receiving party.
i never knew there is such thing as kasih sayang yang tak di-hingini.
i never knew. and for that i am sorry. i shall stop caring about you if that'll make you happy. for in the end, all i want is for all that i love to be happy.
disclaimer : i am NOT talking about a lover for i dont have any and i dont plan to. she's a friend (yes, its a she). a very good friend of mine. or so i thought.
i was unhappy and frustrated. i just could not understand, WHY can't people get me? why wont they trust what i say? why would they believe all these stories told by other people about me, rather than accept my explanation about what actually happened? it gets to me, it caused me to grow up into an insecure young lady, and it made me this very sensitive person who cares greatly about other people's feelings. i become this person who says sorry all the time and i become this person who thinks about other's feelings before doing something. i become this person who notices small things about someone that makes him/her special, and this person who wants to see the brighter side of things and to think a better thought about a person. a person who doesnt judge another person by what other people say about them. a person who doesnt prefer to gossip or badmouth another.
all this time i thought my past has made me a better person. today, a friend told me otherwise.
it brings me back to the days when all my good intentions are misunderstood into jealousy, into mere evil-ness. into...anything except kindness. i dont know whether theres a huge BITCH sign on my forehead, or i merely look so bitchy that my friends just refuse to believe that i meant well and i want the best for them and that i care and...sighs.
its demotivating, y know. it makes me feel like maybe i should stop caring about...anything.
Niesa is already calling me heartless sekarang...kalau i stop caring, i'd prolly be...well i dunno. lungless or organless or soulless or whotever.
i never knew my caring and loving for a person can be troublesome to the receiving party.
i never knew there is such thing as kasih sayang yang tak di-hingini.
i never knew. and for that i am sorry. i shall stop caring about you if that'll make you happy. for in the end, all i want is for all that i love to be happy.
disclaimer : i am NOT talking about a lover for i dont have any and i dont plan to. she's a friend (yes, its a she). a very good friend of mine. or so i thought.
Monday, December 3, 2007
Birthday update:
shaye shayang housemates shaye :D :D :D :D
they made me a birthday cake!!~ wheeee~(by they i mean 85% by Dayah, of course. heee)
thats riiiiiiiggghhttt....i got a Bubuuu!! sukeee very the very!~ thanks Niesa!~they wanted to name him Awang so he's now officially Bawang!~
(he's got a cute little mohawk!!)
so this cute pink Body Shop gift set is from Dayah (obviously)i love ittt!~ lame dah tak beli Body Shop stuff. shayang Dayah!~
and last but of course not the least...
the snickers duo from Aliyah n Adilah!~ heee. tau2 je Atiq suke :D(shian Dayah sampai pening2 kepala penat masakkk)
of that 20th birthday
Happy Birthday to meeee :D
i got birthday wishes in all sorts of languages; Malay, English, Korean, Tagalog....how do they say it in Russia ek, Aimi?~
anyhooooo.
thanks to the people who called at midnight :
Amin (!!) who for the first time ever ever wished me happy birthday mase midnight...kalau tak slalu je wish pukul 11 sebab dah nak tido haha. thanks min!~
Orang Misteri who called and dragged the conversation semata2 sebab nak sabotaj tanak kasik other calls masuk...haha jahaatttt!! (kepada Lala n Lynn --> i'm not telling who Orang Misteri is :p )
Lynn yang call and bising2 tanye nape call takleh masuk mase midnight and Lala tukang bising at the background yang mengantoikan that it wasnt Amin that i was on the phone with....tak aci laaa korang main siasat2 cantu!~ and Aminnn...tak kaver2 pun for meee!~ kekeke
Bing who called all the way from Bath =) its been ages!
Shamil who didnt call but i know he would have if he wasnt in Switzerland berfoya2....ish3 *geleng-geleng kepala
thanks to the people who gave me birthday cards :
Housemate2ku yang pura2 tak ingat walaupun Atiq bising gile on the phone malam tadi and left a card on my table while i was in the showerr...heeee...sayang korang very theeeeee!!
Junior2ku sayang Adilah Aliyah and Anida (and Syazif sebok heee) for the very comeyl bday card and for the snickers...thaaankkssss!!!~~~~~~~
and of ccoooouuurrrseee.... to everyone who remembered dari his/her own memory, dari his/her handphone memory, mahupun dari Friendster... hee ^.^ who wished me mase terserempak with me around in Brookfield, texted me, or gave me birthday friendster comments... (or message - heee thanks awak!~)
(omg i use waaay to many heeees)
i went on a hunt for a birthday gift for myself in town tadi...spent the whole petang there but i couldnt find anything i liiiikkee!!! uwaaaaaaa. there was nothing in River Island, nothing in Debenhams, nothing in MNG, nothing in Clarks, nothing in Schuh....nothing even in Dorothy Perkins!! i meannnn...what are the odds of that to happen?? uwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaa....i SOOO wanna buy myself something special for my birthday, but i tak jmpe ape2 ponnn....sedihh...i nearly cried when it was getting dark and i still havent bought anything :( so i ended up buying myself a pair of bath gloves and a memory card for my K1 KRZR so i can record my lectures.
sedih.
sedihhhhhh.
so when Mama called rase cam na nanges je ckp ngan Mama....huwaaaaaa~
(i do NOT write this with the hope that ppl will thus give me birthday gifts!~ huuu. i want to buy one sendiri~ )
okay maybe i shouldnt talk like this anymore....Atiiiiqqqq dah umur twenty okaayyyy!~ sila membesar!! uwwaaaaa....sampai tua2 ni pun people still panggil Atiq budak kecik la, kanak-kanak laaaa...sobsobs. its just soooo hard to not be manje, sighs.
okay thennn....this is it. i'm twenty. TWENTY. after this the end numbers will change and not the initial numbers anymore. no more sixteen to seventeen to eighteen. all there will be are twenty two. twenty three. yikes!~
so i'm TUA....and most if not all of my friends are eveeeennnn TUA-er than meeee......even my juniors...hahahaha...gelakkan korangggg :p :p :p
happy birthday to me :) doakan usia Atiq diberkati~
salam alaik,
Atiqah :D :D :D
(i'm going to MP nak carik belated birthday present for myself - being 20 is very important...its a milestone!~ kena carik jugak...kalau tak i'll be depressed for a long long time sbb kempunan :( )
i got birthday wishes in all sorts of languages; Malay, English, Korean, Tagalog....how do they say it in Russia ek, Aimi?~
anyhooooo.
thanks to the people who called at midnight :
Amin (!!) who for the first time ever ever wished me happy birthday mase midnight...kalau tak slalu je wish pukul 11 sebab dah nak tido haha. thanks min!~
Orang Misteri who called and dragged the conversation semata2 sebab nak sabotaj tanak kasik other calls masuk...haha jahaatttt!! (kepada Lala n Lynn --> i'm not telling who Orang Misteri is :p )
Lynn yang call and bising2 tanye nape call takleh masuk mase midnight and Lala tukang bising at the background yang mengantoikan that it wasnt Amin that i was on the phone with....tak aci laaa korang main siasat2 cantu!~ and Aminnn...tak kaver2 pun for meee!~ kekeke
Bing who called all the way from Bath =) its been ages!
Shamil who didnt call but i know he would have if he wasnt in Switzerland berfoya2....ish3 *geleng-geleng kepala
thanks to the people who gave me birthday cards :
Housemate2ku yang pura2 tak ingat walaupun Atiq bising gile on the phone malam tadi and left a card on my table while i was in the showerr...heeee...sayang korang very theeeeee!!
Junior2ku sayang Adilah Aliyah and Anida (and Syazif sebok heee) for the very comeyl bday card and for the snickers...thaaankkssss!!!~~~~~~~
and of ccoooouuurrrseee.... to everyone who remembered dari his/her own memory, dari his/her handphone memory, mahupun dari Friendster... hee ^.^ who wished me mase terserempak with me around in Brookfield, texted me, or gave me birthday friendster comments... (or message - heee thanks awak!~)
(omg i use waaay to many heeees)
i went on a hunt for a birthday gift for myself in town tadi...spent the whole petang there but i couldnt find anything i liiiikkee!!! uwaaaaaaa. there was nothing in River Island, nothing in Debenhams, nothing in MNG, nothing in Clarks, nothing in Schuh....nothing even in Dorothy Perkins!! i meannnn...what are the odds of that to happen?? uwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaa....i SOOO wanna buy myself something special for my birthday, but i tak jmpe ape2 ponnn....sedihh...i nearly cried when it was getting dark and i still havent bought anything :( so i ended up buying myself a pair of bath gloves and a memory card for my K1 KRZR so i can record my lectures.
sedih.
sedihhhhhh.
so when Mama called rase cam na nanges je ckp ngan Mama....huwaaaaaa~
(i do NOT write this with the hope that ppl will thus give me birthday gifts!~ huuu. i want to buy one sendiri~ )
okay maybe i shouldnt talk like this anymore....Atiiiiqqqq dah umur twenty okaayyyy!~ sila membesar!! uwwaaaaa....sampai tua2 ni pun people still panggil Atiq budak kecik la, kanak-kanak laaaa...sobsobs. its just soooo hard to not be manje, sighs.
okay thennn....this is it. i'm twenty. TWENTY. after this the end numbers will change and not the initial numbers anymore. no more sixteen to seventeen to eighteen. all there will be are twenty two. twenty three. yikes!~
so i'm TUA....and most if not all of my friends are eveeeennnn TUA-er than meeee......even my juniors...hahahaha...gelakkan korangggg :p :p :p
happy birthday to me :) doakan usia Atiq diberkati~
salam alaik,
Atiqah :D :D :D
(i'm going to MP nak carik belated birthday present for myself - being 20 is very important...its a milestone!~ kena carik jugak...kalau tak i'll be depressed for a long long time sbb kempunan :( )
Sunday, December 2, 2007
just another blog entry
it was pouring outside, and the wind was howling when the tenants of #15 were praying Dhuhr about an hour ago. weird as it is, i'm actually glad that it has finally began to rain here in Cork. Winter has been way too bright with no rain that i started to worry about global warming and some other stuff. well i just love to worry about a lot of things.
we're going on a mission after this: to find our big green household refuse wheelie bin. has anybody seen it? it look a bit like this:
every Sunday everyone in the neighborhood would take out these wheelies and put it outside of their gates for the Refuse Guys to take early on Monday. if this Monday is for refuse, next Monday is for recycle stuff and so on (dont you just love Ireland, shes just so env-friendly =) ). Well last Monday was a Refuse Monday so Dayah the Refuse Girl of the week pulled our wheelie bin and left it outside of our house late that Sunday.
A couplea days later Mas the Refuse Girl of this week began to ask around about our green wheelie, goin all
"wheres our tong sampah?? wheres our tong sampah??" or something like that.
and i jes said "entah? depan rumah kot?"
then i woke up this morning and walked down the stairs to see the front door wide open. the hallway was a mess because Khaza was vacuuming the kitchen and she took out all the chairs from the kitchen. anyway Dayah suddenly walked in and announced that our green wheelie bin is officially missing. she said that she went peeping in other people's wheelie bins* and somebody saw her doing that and might have mistaken her for some homeless looking for food.
she also said when she was walking to class early last Monday she saw the Refuse Guys pulling our green wheelie in front of the neighbours house so they can pick it up with the huge truck together with our neighbour's wheelie bin.
so now we'll have to go door-to-door and ask for our green wheelie bin because the City Council sticker on it is worth hundreds of Euros and our landlady would prolly kill us if we lost it.
and if we still dont find it we'll have to paste "Have you seen our Green Wheelie Bin?" posters all over the neighbourhood.
oh Green Wheelie Bin, where for art thou?
salam,
Atiqah
mwahmwah
*its a long story :p
mission update: we didnt find our green bin but instead we stole a black bin that doesnt seem to belong to anyone, but has the City Council sticker onnit. this is due to a strong suggestion from Mr House-#11-We-Forgot-To-Ask-Whatshisname. we should definitely bake a cake for him after the exams to thank him for his brilliance.
we're going on a mission after this: to find our big green household refuse wheelie bin. has anybody seen it? it look a bit like this:
every Sunday everyone in the neighborhood would take out these wheelies and put it outside of their gates for the Refuse Guys to take early on Monday. if this Monday is for refuse, next Monday is for recycle stuff and so on (dont you just love Ireland, shes just so env-friendly =) ). Well last Monday was a Refuse Monday so Dayah the Refuse Girl of the week pulled our wheelie bin and left it outside of our house late that Sunday.
A couplea days later Mas the Refuse Girl of this week began to ask around about our green wheelie, goin all
"wheres our tong sampah?? wheres our tong sampah??" or something like that.
and i jes said "entah? depan rumah kot?"
then i woke up this morning and walked down the stairs to see the front door wide open. the hallway was a mess because Khaza was vacuuming the kitchen and she took out all the chairs from the kitchen. anyway Dayah suddenly walked in and announced that our green wheelie bin is officially missing. she said that she went peeping in other people's wheelie bins* and somebody saw her doing that and might have mistaken her for some homeless looking for food.
she also said when she was walking to class early last Monday she saw the Refuse Guys pulling our green wheelie in front of the neighbours house so they can pick it up with the huge truck together with our neighbour's wheelie bin.
so now we'll have to go door-to-door and ask for our green wheelie bin because the City Council sticker on it is worth hundreds of Euros and our landlady would prolly kill us if we lost it.
and if we still dont find it we'll have to paste "Have you seen our Green Wheelie Bin?" posters all over the neighbourhood.
oh Green Wheelie Bin, where for art thou?
salam,
Atiqah
mwahmwah
*its a long story :p
mission update: we didnt find our green bin but instead we stole a black bin that doesnt seem to belong to anyone, but has the City Council sticker onnit. this is due to a strong suggestion from Mr House-#11-We-Forgot-To-Ask-Whatshisname. we should definitely bake a cake for him after the exams to thank him for his brilliance.
Friday, November 30, 2007
my non-existing patience.
i really need to work on my patience. pronto. asap. smoke. (hehe)
to say that i lose my patience easily is actually a lie. coz i dont even have any patience in the first place, so its impossible for me to lose it, right. adeyh.
it used to be way worse when i was younger. well. i must say, those who were friends with me back then must've silently hated me, or they must've been tremendously kind-hearted. as i grow older, i still dont possess much patience- but i have maturity, slight wisdom and also, some ego. so tak mengamuk as much as i used to.
usually when i'm mad at someone i'll resort to silence. sebab i've learned (the hard, embarassing way - don't ask) that screaming and pouring out all that anger into words doesnt really have much use to it. tapi i just cannot hold myself when the person i'm mad at just keep on asking stuff, provoking me. i just do NOT have any patience..people, please, do NOT mess with me when i'm pissed off. i am NOT a pleasant girl mase i marah.
Now, i'm feeling guilty sebab marah2 kat this person and i know i should say i'm sorry, tapiiii susahhhhnyeerrrrr... i do NOT like what the person did to me. sighs. maybe i should give myself more time. yes. that sounds like a good plan.
so...does anybody have any tips on how i can work on being more patient...?~
Kak Nang ckp, susah nak sabar nie...sebab tu dalam Quran cakap,
(maksudnya)
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Mohonlah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan sabar dan solat. Sungguh, Allah beserta orang-orang yang sabar."
Al-Baqarah, 2:153
salam,
Atiqah
to say that i lose my patience easily is actually a lie. coz i dont even have any patience in the first place, so its impossible for me to lose it, right. adeyh.
it used to be way worse when i was younger. well. i must say, those who were friends with me back then must've silently hated me, or they must've been tremendously kind-hearted. as i grow older, i still dont possess much patience- but i have maturity, slight wisdom and also, some ego. so tak mengamuk as much as i used to.
usually when i'm mad at someone i'll resort to silence. sebab i've learned (the hard, embarassing way - don't ask) that screaming and pouring out all that anger into words doesnt really have much use to it. tapi i just cannot hold myself when the person i'm mad at just keep on asking stuff, provoking me. i just do NOT have any patience..people, please, do NOT mess with me when i'm pissed off. i am NOT a pleasant girl mase i marah.
Now, i'm feeling guilty sebab marah2 kat this person and i know i should say i'm sorry, tapiiii susahhhhnyeerrrrr... i do NOT like what the person did to me. sighs. maybe i should give myself more time. yes. that sounds like a good plan.
so...does anybody have any tips on how i can work on being more patient...?~
Kak Nang ckp, susah nak sabar nie...sebab tu dalam Quran cakap,
(maksudnya)
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Mohonlah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan sabar dan solat. Sungguh, Allah beserta orang-orang yang sabar."
Al-Baqarah, 2:153
salam,
Atiqah
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Look Into My Eyes - Outlandish
here's a song and a clip worth putting some attention into
Look into my eyes
Tell me what you see
You don't see a damn thing
'cause u can't relate to me
You're blinded by our differences
My life makes no sense to you
I'm the persecuted one
You the red, white and blue
Each day you wake in tranquility
No fears to cross your eyes
Each day I wake in gratitude
Thankin' God He let me rise
You worry 'bout your education
And the bills you have to pay
I worry 'bout my vulnerable life
And if I'll survive another day
Your biggest fear is getting a ticket
As you cruise your Cadillac
My fear is that the tank that has just left
Will turn around and come back
Yet do you know the truth of where your money goes
Do you let the media deceive your mind
Is this a truth that nobody knows
Has our world gone all blind
Some one tell me
[chorus]
Oh let's not cry tonight
I promise you one day it's through
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters
Oh shine a light for every soul
That ain't with us no more
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters
See I've known terror for quite some times
57 years so cruel
Terror breathes the air I breathe
It's the checkpoint on my way to school
Terror is the robbery of my land
And the torture of my mother
The imprisonment of my innocent father
The bullet in my baby brother
The bulldozers and the tanks
The gasses and the guns
The bombs that fall outside my door
All due to your funds
You blame me for defending myself
Against the ways of my enemies
I'm terrorized in my own land
And I'm the terrorist
Yet do you know the truth of where your money goes
Do you let the media deceive your mind
Is this a truth that nobody knows
Some one tell me
[chorus]
American do you realize
That the taxes that you pay
Feed the forces that traumatize
My every living day
So if I won't be here tomorrow
It's written in my fate
May the future bring a brighter day
The end of our wait
[chorus]
wake up ya Ummah, there is more to this world than just yourselves and your loved ones.
salam.
Atiqah
Look into my eyes
Tell me what you see
You don't see a damn thing
'cause u can't relate to me
You're blinded by our differences
My life makes no sense to you
I'm the persecuted one
You the red, white and blue
Each day you wake in tranquility
No fears to cross your eyes
Each day I wake in gratitude
Thankin' God He let me rise
You worry 'bout your education
And the bills you have to pay
I worry 'bout my vulnerable life
And if I'll survive another day
Your biggest fear is getting a ticket
As you cruise your Cadillac
My fear is that the tank that has just left
Will turn around and come back
Yet do you know the truth of where your money goes
Do you let the media deceive your mind
Is this a truth that nobody knows
Has our world gone all blind
Some one tell me
[chorus]
Oh let's not cry tonight
I promise you one day it's through
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters
Oh shine a light for every soul
That ain't with us no more
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters
See I've known terror for quite some times
57 years so cruel
Terror breathes the air I breathe
It's the checkpoint on my way to school
Terror is the robbery of my land
And the torture of my mother
The imprisonment of my innocent father
The bullet in my baby brother
The bulldozers and the tanks
The gasses and the guns
The bombs that fall outside my door
All due to your funds
You blame me for defending myself
Against the ways of my enemies
I'm terrorized in my own land
And I'm the terrorist
Yet do you know the truth of where your money goes
Do you let the media deceive your mind
Is this a truth that nobody knows
Some one tell me
[chorus]
American do you realize
That the taxes that you pay
Feed the forces that traumatize
My every living day
So if I won't be here tomorrow
It's written in my fate
May the future bring a brighter day
The end of our wait
[chorus]
wake up ya Ummah, there is more to this world than just yourselves and your loved ones.
salam.
Atiqah
Saturday, November 24, 2007
signing off from the cyber world fer a while..~
post-usrah syndrome: i've so many things to share dgn orang sampai i dont know how to susun words to tell the rest of the world (well, the world that reads my blog, at least :p) hmm. maybe someday i'll get better at this.
nway this entry is 2 let u know that i'll be off from my ym, off from my blog and off from my Friendster fer some time..i've to take a step back and analyze a lot of things...without the distractions of these. so if u dont see me online fer a long time dekat my ym tu, jgn ingat atiq buat appear permanently invis/ignored u or anything such kay.
what i wont be off from are my e-mail (banyak tanggungjwb...xleh abaikan my email) and my handphone (walaupun boleh tinggal merata2 lame2 dgn sesuka hati and still takde text - not that i'm complaining) so if u've anything super important (especially MAFASYNZ princesses) e-mail/text me kay.
i'm in an emotional roller-coaster...dont really know how to describe it, but i know i'll get better insyaAllah. so do NOT worry kayh. its just me being me.
salam~
loves.
Atiqah.
nway this entry is 2 let u know that i'll be off from my ym, off from my blog and off from my Friendster fer some time..i've to take a step back and analyze a lot of things...without the distractions of these. so if u dont see me online fer a long time dekat my ym tu, jgn ingat atiq buat appear permanently invis/ignored u or anything such kay.
what i wont be off from are my e-mail (banyak tanggungjwb...xleh abaikan my email) and my handphone (walaupun boleh tinggal merata2 lame2 dgn sesuka hati and still takde text - not that i'm complaining) so if u've anything super important (especially MAFASYNZ princesses) e-mail/text me kay.
i'm in an emotional roller-coaster...dont really know how to describe it, but i know i'll get better insyaAllah. so do NOT worry kayh. its just me being me.
salam~
loves.
Atiqah.
Friday, November 23, 2007
some random pics in my handphone
handphones with cameras are especially useful for taking spur of the moment pictures, so naturally i found some super random pics when i was clicking through my handphone's album. hope u like em as much as i do :)
Roses on the Main Quad, taken last Spring
Charlene's bedroom wall in #58. i love the HappyBunny poster.
(also there: an irish flag, 'Proud to be Amerwiccan' and our theme song, 'Dancing in the Moonlight')
Arabic signs in Doha Airport: waiting for the connecting flight.
#15 - dont judge a rumah by it's cat. hehe.
in support of BERSIH...?
Bulan Siang..~
a peculiar sight we found when we were shopping in LiDL, a German-based retailer.
my room in #15: seen are a couple of crayon drawings by Didie
(i mintak from her, brought it here and framed it)
took this picture when i was walking to class this morning : the sun is shining ever so bright but the grass and cars are covered in frost. welcome, winter.
Roses on the Main Quad, taken last Spring
Charlene's bedroom wall in #58. i love the HappyBunny poster. (also there: an irish flag, 'Proud to be Amerwiccan' and our theme song, 'Dancing in the Moonlight')
Arabic signs in Doha Airport: waiting for the connecting flight.
#15 - dont judge a rumah by it's cat. hehe.
in support of BERSIH...?
Bulan Siang..~
a peculiar sight we found when we were shopping in LiDL, a German-based retailer.
my room in #15: seen are a couple of crayon drawings by Didie(i mintak from her, brought it here and framed it)
took this picture when i was walking to class this morning : the sun is shining ever so bright but the grass and cars are covered in frost. welcome, winter.Thursday, November 22, 2007
Bubbly Babblers
dear readers...
i very very the very like the idea of having a shoutbox in my blog sebab ppl can just randomly say hi and bertanya khabar and also because it has cute very berperasaan smileys 4 everyone to use (hee ^.^)
i know tak ramai orang yang sempat tgk pun the shoutbox sbb atiq letak brape hari je before i deleted it...well, lets just say its complicated.
anyhooo. purpose of this entry is 2 say,
i blog because i love writing and to give an update on my life 2 those who care. it started when i had to sit 4 the autumn exams. i do NOT write with the hope that loads of people will read it...so telling me to promote my blog dgn lebih giat is...nonsense.
whoever thinks contents dlm blog ni xdiverse/xmenarik/bosan...
1. atiq ta pakse pun bace this blog. ta suke takyah bace, kay?
2. go to other blogs that has what u want to read about, or better yet, tulis blog sendiri...boleh tau buat blog sendiri...www.blogger.com. haa..pastu bolehla tulis pasal ape-apeeee pun yang awak rasa best/worth to write about.
apekate?
sekian.
salam alaik.
i very very the very like the idea of having a shoutbox in my blog sebab ppl can just randomly say hi and bertanya khabar and also because it has cute very berperasaan smileys 4 everyone to use (hee ^.^)
i know tak ramai orang yang sempat tgk pun the shoutbox sbb atiq letak brape hari je before i deleted it...well, lets just say its complicated.
anyhooo. purpose of this entry is 2 say,
i blog because i love writing and to give an update on my life 2 those who care. it started when i had to sit 4 the autumn exams. i do NOT write with the hope that loads of people will read it...so telling me to promote my blog dgn lebih giat is...nonsense.
whoever thinks contents dlm blog ni xdiverse/xmenarik/bosan...
1. atiq ta pakse pun bace this blog. ta suke takyah bace, kay?
2. go to other blogs that has what u want to read about, or better yet, tulis blog sendiri...boleh tau buat blog sendiri...www.blogger.com. haa..pastu bolehla tulis pasal ape-apeeee pun yang awak rasa best/worth to write about.
apekate?
sekian.
salam alaik.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
hmmm.
some kiddies rang our bell last night and when we opened the door,
"We wish you a Merry Christmas, We wish you a Merry Christmas, ..."
hadoiilar. datang nyanyi Christmas carols la pulak. kitorang cam blur taktau nak respond ape, kalau trick or treat tu taular kasik candies.
Me : uhm... we're not used to this. what do ppl usually do?~
The girls : (looking at each other) (none seem to want to say it)
Me : do u get what i'm sayin, girls?
The girls : (mumbles) yeah...yes, we do.
One of them : Uhm...money.
Me : ahh.. i see.
so people...betul ek kena kasik duit kat diorang?~ (haha...bukan Atiq..housemate2 Atiq ni ha mencurigai budak2 tu kwang2)
Khaza : Jom kite gi nyanyi skali? dpt duit?
Me : tak payah...kite dah tua bangka, tak comel. kena halau karang.
(haha)
"We wish you a Merry Christmas, We wish you a Merry Christmas, ..."
hadoiilar. datang nyanyi Christmas carols la pulak. kitorang cam blur taktau nak respond ape, kalau trick or treat tu taular kasik candies.
Me : uhm... we're not used to this. what do ppl usually do?~
The girls : (looking at each other) (none seem to want to say it)
Me : do u get what i'm sayin, girls?
The girls : (mumbles) yeah...yes, we do.
One of them : Uhm...money.
Me : ahh.. i see.
so people...betul ek kena kasik duit kat diorang?~ (haha...bukan Atiq..housemate2 Atiq ni ha mencurigai budak2 tu kwang2)
Khaza : Jom kite gi nyanyi skali? dpt duit?
Me : tak payah...kite dah tua bangka, tak comel. kena halau karang.
(haha)
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
ramainye org terasa dgn atiq...
i'm sorry if i've hurt your feelings..i really, really, am sorry~
friends...do tell me if my words/actions hurt you, because i'm destined to be this super blur and un-intuitive person that i am~
salam,
Atiqah
friends...do tell me if my words/actions hurt you, because i'm destined to be this super blur and un-intuitive person that i am~
salam,
Atiqah
Monday, November 19, 2007
Death.
let's imagine a situation...
say you're a University student, and you're a secretary for this really active Society on campus, right. you're so busy minding your work as a secretary - writing up reports, scheduling meetings, planning major events, promoting them....is this wrong?~ Nope.
but obviously, everyone knows a student's priority, right? what is it?~ Studies, exactly. being active in a Society...its fun, its a great experience..sometimes its even crucial for certain students in certain courses to be working in a Society in order to have better chance to get a job...
but one should always, always, put his studies first, right?~ Only the (sorry to say) less smart people will do too much Society work until he is left behind in his studies...or even worse, prioritize the Society work more than his studies...
then when the exam's closing in on him, he'll start to feel the pressure...seeing his friends that are studying say, Chapter 11...when he's still in, say, Chapter 2~ he'll begin to feel really nervous, seeing his friends attempting the past year questions...when he hasnt even finish reading...~
when the exams came and he failed to answer it well, he said to himself..
"what have I been doing all these while?? hari tu rase cam lambat lagi nak exam...aarghh..nape aku busy sangat buat keje Society niiiii..."
(by now you're probably thinking, "wow, what a moron. macam...sape suh cacat sangat...obviously study lagi penting...tu pun x reti nak fikir awal2 ke?~" ...am i right?~)
you'll know what i meant by this cooked-up story after you watch this video...
just a reminder that i think all Muslims should watch...i was really moved when i watched it, so i thought i should share it with everyone..
jazakillah to Dayah Hamdi for sharing the YouTube link with me~
salam,
Atiqah
say you're a University student, and you're a secretary for this really active Society on campus, right. you're so busy minding your work as a secretary - writing up reports, scheduling meetings, planning major events, promoting them....is this wrong?~ Nope.
but obviously, everyone knows a student's priority, right? what is it?~ Studies, exactly. being active in a Society...its fun, its a great experience..sometimes its even crucial for certain students in certain courses to be working in a Society in order to have better chance to get a job...
but one should always, always, put his studies first, right?~ Only the (sorry to say) less smart people will do too much Society work until he is left behind in his studies...or even worse, prioritize the Society work more than his studies...
then when the exam's closing in on him, he'll start to feel the pressure...seeing his friends that are studying say, Chapter 11...when he's still in, say, Chapter 2~ he'll begin to feel really nervous, seeing his friends attempting the past year questions...when he hasnt even finish reading...~
when the exams came and he failed to answer it well, he said to himself..
"what have I been doing all these while?? hari tu rase cam lambat lagi nak exam...aarghh..nape aku busy sangat buat keje Society niiiii..."
(by now you're probably thinking, "wow, what a moron. macam...sape suh cacat sangat...obviously study lagi penting...tu pun x reti nak fikir awal2 ke?~" ...am i right?~)
you'll know what i meant by this cooked-up story after you watch this video...
just a reminder that i think all Muslims should watch...i was really moved when i watched it, so i thought i should share it with everyone..
jazakillah to Dayah Hamdi for sharing the YouTube link with me~
salam,
Atiqah
Friday, November 16, 2007
a blessing in disguise
something really, really...incredible just happened. i am sad and ecstatic all at the same time...~
its a very sad kejadian, actually...but with very obvious positive hikmah-s behind it..
hanya saya dan dia dan Dia sahaja yang tahu...i hope you know that i completely understand the reasons behind your decision, and know that i'm happy that it has come to this point. i'm sad, but i'm happy.
(yeah i know...i'm weird)
(and yeah...i know you guys hate half-told stories... baik takyah cakap langsung kan kan?? heee. sorrryyyyy!!!)
the solution is sooo easy dengan bantuan Allah s.w.t~~ here we are going crazy trying to mencari jalan keluar, sedangkan bila kita mendoakannya.....
Allah Maha Penyayang dan Maha Mengetahui...indeed...His plan is the best..~
dari Surah At-Talaq, 65:3 maksudnya:
"dan Dia memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tidak disangka-sangkanya. Dan barang siapa bertawakkal kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan (keperluan)nya. Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan-Nya. Sungguh, Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi setiap sesuatu."
mari sama-sama membaiki diri...
assalamualaikum
Atiq...ah?
its a very sad kejadian, actually...but with very obvious positive hikmah-s behind it..
hanya saya dan dia dan Dia sahaja yang tahu...i hope you know that i completely understand the reasons behind your decision, and know that i'm happy that it has come to this point. i'm sad, but i'm happy.
(yeah i know...i'm weird)
(and yeah...i know you guys hate half-told stories... baik takyah cakap langsung kan kan?? heee. sorrryyyyy!!!)
the solution is sooo easy dengan bantuan Allah s.w.t~~ here we are going crazy trying to mencari jalan keluar, sedangkan bila kita mendoakannya.....
Allah Maha Penyayang dan Maha Mengetahui...indeed...His plan is the best..~
dari Surah At-Talaq, 65:3 maksudnya:
"dan Dia memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tidak disangka-sangkanya. Dan barang siapa bertawakkal kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan (keperluan)nya. Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan-Nya. Sungguh, Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi setiap sesuatu."
mari sama-sama membaiki diri...
assalamualaikum
Atiq...ah?
Thursday, November 15, 2007
monologue - (Ireland) time : 00.55
a flow of thoughts so random that nobody but myself can understand it, let alone find it interesting to read, blimey.
i cant sleep. m having a headache, thus i cant focus on reading, thus i cant study. my room is nice n tidy and all the clothes are now neatly folded/hanged, so i've nothing to kemaskan. i wanna talk, but i dont feel like talking to any of the (online) people in my ym list. the people i wanna talk to are either asleep or busy ignoring me. i havent studied for tomorrow's tutorial yet. its at 11. or izit at 10? definitely shud wake up early tomorrow. clean up the kitchen, make nasik goreng for breakfast, then study the tutorial.
sleepsleepsleep Atiqah.
insomnia is the biggest bugger in the whole wide world.
i miss Mama. maybe i shud listen to that voicemail she left on the house phone again. hmm.
maybe i shudnt, its too loud and she was babbling away happily to herself in it, it might annoy my housemates.
i wonder if theres still leftover dessert from dinner just now. yummy~
NO Atiqah...do NOT consume unnecessary extra calories.
i'm very the jahat one..
should i forgive and forget yet again...?~
insomnia sucks.
it drives you bonkers.
-lunATIQUE-
(cool.....not)
i cant sleep. m having a headache, thus i cant focus on reading, thus i cant study. my room is nice n tidy and all the clothes are now neatly folded/hanged, so i've nothing to kemaskan. i wanna talk, but i dont feel like talking to any of the (online) people in my ym list. the people i wanna talk to are either asleep or busy ignoring me. i havent studied for tomorrow's tutorial yet. its at 11. or izit at 10? definitely shud wake up early tomorrow. clean up the kitchen, make nasik goreng for breakfast, then study the tutorial.
sleepsleepsleep Atiqah.
insomnia is the biggest bugger in the whole wide world.
i miss Mama. maybe i shud listen to that voicemail she left on the house phone again. hmm.
maybe i shudnt, its too loud and she was babbling away happily to herself in it, it might annoy my housemates.
i wonder if theres still leftover dessert from dinner just now. yummy~
NO Atiqah...do NOT consume unnecessary extra calories.
i'm very the jahat one..
should i forgive and forget yet again...?~
insomnia sucks.
it drives you bonkers.
-lunATIQUE-
(cool.....not)
Sunday, November 11, 2007
friends come and go....right?
*sobs*
well...maybe. but bestfriends are supposed to stick, right..?~
ah this sucks. big time.
separations...why must it be so hard?
well...maybe. but bestfriends are supposed to stick, right..?~
ah this sucks. big time.
separations...why must it be so hard?
of friendship and betrayal..~
sometimes i wonder, how can the people that i love so much betrays me in such unthinkable fashion..~? this is the second time in two months, and its done by three different bestfriends.. i seem to suck at choosing friends,huh. well...two of them said sorry and everything and me being the homo sapien holding strong to the forgive-and-forget principal of life, moved on from the crisis and is completely okay with them now.
but then this has to happen and its a really big blow fer me...its the bestfriend that knows absolutely everything about myself and my past, the bestfriend that i can tell everything to and get away with cause i know he'll still love me anyways, the bestfriend that i trust most..he's the bestfriend, y know what i'm sayin?
i haven't spent time chatting to him fer quite some time...haven't been calling him like i used to, we're not as close as we were before...but still. it gives him no right to do this to me. it hurts, and it hurts more that he has to lie about it.
wait.
this sounds familiar...mengapakahhhh it has to happen to me again and again?? God, i so need a completely new set of friends or something. like...start over from scratch.
well maybe not completely. i mean...nisa is great. lynn is too. and kelly is wnderful. i dont know...friends...they're mind boggling, dont you think so?~ macam...sekejap they seem like the greatest people ever...tibe2 they become these horrible monsters and makes you wonder whether they were ever really the person you once thought they were...
sedih kan?~
sighs.
on a more happy and positive note: scored myself a new friend yesterday. lets just hope i did a better job this time around, shall we?~
salam,
mwahness~
p.s: you. yes i was talking about you. i know you told her something. sapa hati~
but then this has to happen and its a really big blow fer me...its the bestfriend that knows absolutely everything about myself and my past, the bestfriend that i can tell everything to and get away with cause i know he'll still love me anyways, the bestfriend that i trust most..he's the bestfriend, y know what i'm sayin?
i haven't spent time chatting to him fer quite some time...haven't been calling him like i used to, we're not as close as we were before...but still. it gives him no right to do this to me. it hurts, and it hurts more that he has to lie about it.
wait.
this sounds familiar...mengapakahhhh it has to happen to me again and again?? God, i so need a completely new set of friends or something. like...start over from scratch.
well maybe not completely. i mean...nisa is great. lynn is too. and kelly is wnderful. i dont know...friends...they're mind boggling, dont you think so?~ macam...sekejap they seem like the greatest people ever...tibe2 they become these horrible monsters and makes you wonder whether they were ever really the person you once thought they were...
sedih kan?~
sighs.
on a more happy and positive note: scored myself a new friend yesterday. lets just hope i did a better job this time around, shall we?~
salam,
mwahness~
p.s: you. yes i was talking about you. i know you told her something. sapa hati~
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Happy Hallowwwweeeeennn!~
well this is a bit late i suppose. a day late. hmm..tibe2 teringat kat #58 ladies. we had carved pumpkins during last year's Halloween, we made them a couple of days before that. and Charlene drew tarot cards for each of us in turn, and we had a human Weetabix visiting us half drunk, and a Skeleton slamming onto our living room window, and a horde of vampires and its likes roaming around carrying beer cans. those were the days living in the students hall..
This year, however..we live in a family housing area, renting out. Mas and Khaza bought a pack of candies earlier on the day, apparently Kak Asma' told them last year kids were trick or treating to this house. true enough, at 8-something p.m. Khaza heard "trick-or-treat!!!" squeaks from outside and yelled out for me to answer the door. I opened the bag of candies and opened the door to three little irish boys (i hope they never grow up. well if they do, they better not throw eggs at foreigners!).
Me : helllloooww...what are you supposed to be?~ Here..grab all you want!
Them : (taking as much candies as they can in their little hands and furiously picking up the ones yang tejatuh)
Kid number 1 : (grins) well...i'm supposed to be a Vampire, and he's supposed to be a Darth Vader..
Me : ahhh...i see~
i looked over to Kid number 3 yang terabai because his friend/brother doesnt seem to take much notice of him.
Me : ooohhh...u're Jack!
Kid number 3/super-cute miniature Jack Sparrow : (smiles) yes, i am!!
Me : alright then..Happy Halloowweeenn!!
voice from in the middle of my front lawn : (deep, grown up voice) Goodbye now!
Me : (confuzzled)
i so wish i'd taken pictures with the little kiddies...they're the only ones brave enough to come trick-or-treating to our house last night. well. better luck next year!
(the bag of candies tinggal separuh walaupun tiga orang budak tu je yang datang...haha sabar je la banyak gile amek, seb baek comeyl!)
we planned to pakai kain smayang and scare the kids yang datang lepas tu...haha jahat gile. seb baek gak takde dah yang datang :p
salam,
mwahness :D
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
anak dols/emptyheaded idiots
latar tempat : road from Glasheen to Brookfield, u know, that big jalan, the one where the bar is
latar masa : two-ish p.m.
watak : three idiots around 14 years old, a fake brunette, people in the car, and the short-tempered Tengku Nur 'Atiqah.
i was walking down the road when i suddenly noticed something flying near me, narrowly missing my head, and smashed on the road; it was an EGG.
satisfied that the idiots missed me (my newfound mutant superpower: egg-shield) and refusing to give them the satisfaction of getting a response, i walked selamberly straight towards the traffic lights without turning to see who threw the eggs, slapped the pedestrian crossing sensor perhaps a little bit too hard and stood waiting for the pedestrian light to turn green.
then i thought whoever threw the eggs must've turned round and walked away, so i turned to see who it was, and saw three grinning irish boys walking away and glancing back at me every now and then.
(i was so tempted to give them the finger)
(gave them an angry stare)
(still tempted to give them the finger)
(consoled myself)
(people in the car were staring at me; i might've subconsciously turned into a she-hulk for all i know)
to you anak dols out there. if those eggs of yours land on ANY of my coats, ESPECIALLY the one i was wearing tadi, u're dead meat. maybe i should carry Kak Nik's hammer around with me and scare them shitless if they try that again. mm-hmm.
-psychotic girl/anak-dol hater-
latar masa : two-ish p.m.
watak : three idiots around 14 years old, a fake brunette, people in the car, and the short-tempered Tengku Nur 'Atiqah.
i was walking down the road when i suddenly noticed something flying near me, narrowly missing my head, and smashed on the road; it was an EGG.
satisfied that the idiots missed me (my newfound mutant superpower: egg-shield) and refusing to give them the satisfaction of getting a response, i walked selamberly straight towards the traffic lights without turning to see who threw the eggs, slapped the pedestrian crossing sensor perhaps a little bit too hard and stood waiting for the pedestrian light to turn green.
then i thought whoever threw the eggs must've turned round and walked away, so i turned to see who it was, and saw three grinning irish boys walking away and glancing back at me every now and then.
(i was so tempted to give them the finger)
(gave them an angry stare)
(still tempted to give them the finger)
(consoled myself)
(people in the car were staring at me; i might've subconsciously turned into a she-hulk for all i know)
to you anak dols out there. if those eggs of yours land on ANY of my coats, ESPECIALLY the one i was wearing tadi, u're dead meat. maybe i should carry Kak Nik's hammer around with me and scare them shitless if they try that again. mm-hmm.
-psychotic girl/anak-dol hater-
Monday, October 29, 2007
of this PR job and daylight saving
ishk.
nak nanges...boleh x?
being a PRO for MCS, keje die selain dr keje2 yang Event Manager kasik, basically is just checking emails and sending texts.
easy?
not quite.
slh Atiq jgk...buat keje ape2 tah. kan dah kena maki kat orang. haih. lame dah tak kena maki. skali skale kena maki perit jugak rase. especially bile orang tu Atiq kenal. bagus jugak gune number MCS buat keje, die tak tau sape yang hantar the msg. (i doubt the person reads my blog..so takpe la cakap kat sini kan?) (takut la pulak)
ishk. manje gile. sikit2 nak nanges. tolonglar Atiqah. kecik sampai besar prangai lebih kurang same je.
anyway. yesterday everybody reversed their watches satu jam kebelakang - its the beginning of the Daylight Saving period. dah start dah zaman2 pukul 6 dah gelap gelita. makin jauh plak rasa dengan orang Malaysia bila beza masa dah tambah, from 7 hours dah jadi 8 hours. selamat menjadi semakin merana kepada mereka yang ada balak/awek/suami/isteri/tunang dikejauhan, ucapan ikhlas daripada saya yang single, haha.
eh cam jahat plak.
kan senang if i have the power to do just that? kalau rase tak sempat nak buat something, or i'm going to be late for some important event, just make everybody in the world reverse their watches and make all the satellites change the cellphone and laptop clocks of all homo sapiens. nice.
ooh. i came back from Dublin smalam. missed the 5pm bus sbb makan cake and food from Rico's at Lynn's so decided to redah je naik bas pukul7 sorang2. turned out i met some seniors waiting for the bus mase i went to the bus stop. bile sampai Cork they had to (read the keterpaksaan note) send me back home dulu dengan cab, being the noble gentlemen that they are, then baru they go back to their house in Wilton. segan GILE, sumpah tak tipu. i dont really know any of them. ye la kenal la name tapi i dont know know them, u know what i mean?
(theres way too many knows in that paragraph)
i always do that, ishk. selalu je put myself in awkward situations. sepatutnye Atiq amek je cab sorang2 and smile and say 'no thanks, i'll be fine' je bile diorang offer nak hantar, and not just stand there like an antisocial freak and wait for instructions. God, i surprise myself sometimes with how unfriendly and unapproachable and un-a-lot-of-things i can be. it boggles the mind.
i think i'm losing my social skills. like seriously. and i think my self-esteem has all gone down the drain. apehal tah. cacat gile la Atiqah.
ramai ke orang bace blog Atiq ye? Atiq tau just kakak, Opie, Mimie, and senior2 sengal tapi best rumah Halldene n Charnwood yang slalu bace...hmm. u there. YOU. let me know u're reading this kay? hehe.
(entry ini sungguh menyedihkan i think. ah. whatever. i'm publishing it neways)
gnight peeps.
salam,
mwahness.
nak nanges...boleh x?
being a PRO for MCS, keje die selain dr keje2 yang Event Manager kasik, basically is just checking emails and sending texts.
easy?
not quite.
slh Atiq jgk...buat keje ape2 tah. kan dah kena maki kat orang. haih. lame dah tak kena maki. skali skale kena maki perit jugak rase. especially bile orang tu Atiq kenal. bagus jugak gune number MCS buat keje, die tak tau sape yang hantar the msg. (i doubt the person reads my blog..so takpe la cakap kat sini kan?) (takut la pulak)
ishk. manje gile. sikit2 nak nanges. tolonglar Atiqah. kecik sampai besar prangai lebih kurang same je.
anyway. yesterday everybody reversed their watches satu jam kebelakang - its the beginning of the Daylight Saving period. dah start dah zaman2 pukul 6 dah gelap gelita. makin jauh plak rasa dengan orang Malaysia bila beza masa dah tambah, from 7 hours dah jadi 8 hours. selamat menjadi semakin merana kepada mereka yang ada balak/awek/suami/isteri/tunang dikejauhan, ucapan ikhlas daripada saya yang single, haha.
eh cam jahat plak.
kan senang if i have the power to do just that? kalau rase tak sempat nak buat something, or i'm going to be late for some important event, just make everybody in the world reverse their watches and make all the satellites change the cellphone and laptop clocks of all homo sapiens. nice.
ooh. i came back from Dublin smalam. missed the 5pm bus sbb makan cake and food from Rico's at Lynn's so decided to redah je naik bas pukul7 sorang2. turned out i met some seniors waiting for the bus mase i went to the bus stop. bile sampai Cork they had to (read the keterpaksaan note) send me back home dulu dengan cab, being the noble gentlemen that they are, then baru they go back to their house in Wilton. segan GILE, sumpah tak tipu. i dont really know any of them. ye la kenal la name tapi i dont know know them, u know what i mean?
(theres way too many knows in that paragraph)
i always do that, ishk. selalu je put myself in awkward situations. sepatutnye Atiq amek je cab sorang2 and smile and say 'no thanks, i'll be fine' je bile diorang offer nak hantar, and not just stand there like an antisocial freak and wait for instructions. God, i surprise myself sometimes with how unfriendly and unapproachable and un-a-lot-of-things i can be. it boggles the mind.
i think i'm losing my social skills. like seriously. and i think my self-esteem has all gone down the drain. apehal tah. cacat gile la Atiqah.
ramai ke orang bace blog Atiq ye? Atiq tau just kakak, Opie, Mimie, and senior2 sengal tapi best rumah Halldene n Charnwood yang slalu bace...hmm. u there. YOU. let me know u're reading this kay? hehe.
(entry ini sungguh menyedihkan i think. ah. whatever. i'm publishing it neways)
gnight peeps.
salam,
mwahness.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
it's true. i'm THAT boh-ring.
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Saturday, October 20, 2007
something meaningful to ramble about~
(this blog is dedicated to myself more than to others. it is not deliberately meant to offense or attack anyone by any chance)
c.h.a.n.g.e.
6 letters. its seems so simple, isnt it? maybe it is simple. maybe i'm the one thats making it seem so impossible. HOW do they do it anyways? how do people change? how do they get so strong? how do they keep a straight face when friends are mocking them? how do they smile when they got called a hypocrite? how do they keep going on when people say its not gonna last? how do they wear the right clothes and ignore all the smirks? how do they act the right way without getting influenced with the way everybody else is acting?~
how?
how?
Rasulullah S.A.W. bersabda, maksudnya:
"Kenabian akan berada bersamamu selama mana ia dikehendaki oleh Allah, kemudian Dia mengangkatnya ketika mana Dia mahu mengangkatnya
Kemudian akan tiba pula zaman Khilafah di atas Manhaj Kenabian selama mana ia dikehendaki oleh Allah, kemudian Dia mengangkatnya ketika mana Dia mahu mengangkatnya
Kemudian datang pula zaman raja yang menggigit selama mana ia dikehendaki oleh Allah, kemudian Dia mengangkatnya ketika mana Dia mahu mengangkatnya
Selepas itu muncul pula zaman raja yang diktator selama mana ia dikehendaki oleh Allah, kemudian Dia mengangkatnya ketika mana Dia mahu mengangkatnya
Kemudian akan hadir pula zaman Khilafah di atas manhaj Kenabian..."
HADITH RIWAYAT AHMAD 4/275, ABU DAUD 4/211, AT TIRMIDHI 4/503
there it is. reason that is reason enough for anything. strength, core of all strengths. Allah promised victory for Islam. This victory is going to happen, with or without me. Now, i have a choice: to be the person who is part of it, or to be the person who simply watch it happen. To be a person who strives for Akhirah, or to be seorang yang lalai dengan keduniaan. harta dan hiburan. takut mati. takut untuk fikir tentang dosa. takut untuk fikirkan tentang seksaan kubur.
coward.
coward.
why do i care so much of what people say? people. siapakah mereka ini di Padang Mahsyar nanti? sekadar salah satu dari selautan manusia. yang mungkin berbogel. mungkin bercahaya. mungkin menggelupur kepanasan. will they even recognize me? will they help me when i am questioned,
WHY DO YOU NOT COVER YOURSELF AS WE COMMAND YOU TO?
WHY DO YOU NOT ABIDE TO OUR RULES?
Pada ketika ini aku hanya aku. I will be held responsible for every single thing i do. Aku yang akan dipersalahkan. Aku yang akan dihukum. Tuhan yang akan menjadi Hakim. hanya Allah yang Maha Berkuasa.
Jadi kenapa harus aku ikut kata manusia? kenapa perlu aku ikut arus mereka?
To sin is one thing, to mock others who try no to sin is another.
Bila berkelakuan, beradablah dengan adab yang diredhai Allah. Bila berpakaian, pakailah pakaian yang disukaiNya.
Dia Pencipta. Dia Maha Berkuasa. it is Him that we need to please, why is it so hard for us to realize that?
Sungguh, manusia tidak tahu bersyukur dengan kasih sayang dah nikmat yang dikurniakan oleh-Nya.
Reminder to self:
Kejarlah dunia, tetapi kejarlah ia demi mengejar Akhirat. bukan kerana harta dan kekayaan. Kalau boleh bawak masuk kubur pun dah tak boleh pegi shopping dah okay. huhu.
c.h.a.n.g.e.
6 letters. its seems so simple, isnt it? maybe it is simple. maybe i'm the one thats making it seem so impossible. HOW do they do it anyways? how do people change? how do they get so strong? how do they keep a straight face when friends are mocking them? how do they smile when they got called a hypocrite? how do they keep going on when people say its not gonna last? how do they wear the right clothes and ignore all the smirks? how do they act the right way without getting influenced with the way everybody else is acting?~
how?
how?
Rasulullah S.A.W. bersabda, maksudnya:
"Kenabian akan berada bersamamu selama mana ia dikehendaki oleh Allah, kemudian Dia mengangkatnya ketika mana Dia mahu mengangkatnya
Kemudian akan tiba pula zaman Khilafah di atas Manhaj Kenabian selama mana ia dikehendaki oleh Allah, kemudian Dia mengangkatnya ketika mana Dia mahu mengangkatnya
Kemudian datang pula zaman raja yang menggigit selama mana ia dikehendaki oleh Allah, kemudian Dia mengangkatnya ketika mana Dia mahu mengangkatnya
Selepas itu muncul pula zaman raja yang diktator selama mana ia dikehendaki oleh Allah, kemudian Dia mengangkatnya ketika mana Dia mahu mengangkatnya
Kemudian akan hadir pula zaman Khilafah di atas manhaj Kenabian..."
HADITH RIWAYAT AHMAD 4/275, ABU DAUD 4/211, AT TIRMIDHI 4/503
there it is. reason that is reason enough for anything. strength, core of all strengths. Allah promised victory for Islam. This victory is going to happen, with or without me. Now, i have a choice: to be the person who is part of it, or to be the person who simply watch it happen. To be a person who strives for Akhirah, or to be seorang yang lalai dengan keduniaan. harta dan hiburan. takut mati. takut untuk fikir tentang dosa. takut untuk fikirkan tentang seksaan kubur.
coward.
coward.
why do i care so much of what people say? people. siapakah mereka ini di Padang Mahsyar nanti? sekadar salah satu dari selautan manusia. yang mungkin berbogel. mungkin bercahaya. mungkin menggelupur kepanasan. will they even recognize me? will they help me when i am questioned,
WHY DO YOU NOT COVER YOURSELF AS WE COMMAND YOU TO?
WHY DO YOU NOT ABIDE TO OUR RULES?
Pada ketika ini aku hanya aku. I will be held responsible for every single thing i do. Aku yang akan dipersalahkan. Aku yang akan dihukum. Tuhan yang akan menjadi Hakim. hanya Allah yang Maha Berkuasa.
Jadi kenapa harus aku ikut kata manusia? kenapa perlu aku ikut arus mereka?
To sin is one thing, to mock others who try no to sin is another.
Bila berkelakuan, beradablah dengan adab yang diredhai Allah. Bila berpakaian, pakailah pakaian yang disukaiNya.
Dia Pencipta. Dia Maha Berkuasa. it is Him that we need to please, why is it so hard for us to realize that?
Sungguh, manusia tidak tahu bersyukur dengan kasih sayang dah nikmat yang dikurniakan oleh-Nya.
Reminder to self:
Kejarlah dunia, tetapi kejarlah ia demi mengejar Akhirat. bukan kerana harta dan kekayaan. Kalau boleh bawak masuk kubur pun dah tak boleh pegi shopping dah okay. huhu.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Forgive. and Forget.
it makes you feel sooooo much better, seriously. you should try it sometime.
i was wronged, betrayed, belittled, lied to straight on my face (i actually know as a fact that very moment that the person's lying, but i couldnt say anything about it. its the worst, most horrible feeling ever, ever)
i felt angry, upset, sad, disappointed. i wanted to scream and yell and reveal all that i know. but i didnt, thinking of the anger i will thus cause, thinking of the friendship that i'll probably ruin.
but then i thought... WHY am i wasting so much energy and time and feeling on these people? seriously, like. they dont appreciate me. so they're not worth fretting over, right. like, whatever.
they're going to be SO miserable already for what they did, so i'll just leave them be and let go of it.
it feels great :D
ooooohhh. Kakwe called and told me TONNES of cerita2 on the two little kiddos and their Raya, haha. feel a bit updated now. sungguh pressure takde gambar Raya from my family back at home. why oh why desktop kat White Villa buat hal mase Raya, hadeyh.
and i got a new handphone today :D its really nice. it's loaned by this person for me to use for MCS, since i'm the PRO. bile my housemates tanye pasal the handphone, i told them the person confessed his love for me and gave me the phone as a keepsake, hahahaha.
(nobody believed it, cehss.)
gotta go sleep.
salam,
mwahness.
i love YOU.
i was wronged, betrayed, belittled, lied to straight on my face (i actually know as a fact that very moment that the person's lying, but i couldnt say anything about it. its the worst, most horrible feeling ever, ever)
i felt angry, upset, sad, disappointed. i wanted to scream and yell and reveal all that i know. but i didnt, thinking of the anger i will thus cause, thinking of the friendship that i'll probably ruin.
but then i thought... WHY am i wasting so much energy and time and feeling on these people? seriously, like. they dont appreciate me. so they're not worth fretting over, right. like, whatever.
they're going to be SO miserable already for what they did, so i'll just leave them be and let go of it.
it feels great :D
ooooohhh. Kakwe called and told me TONNES of cerita2 on the two little kiddos and their Raya, haha. feel a bit updated now. sungguh pressure takde gambar Raya from my family back at home. why oh why desktop kat White Villa buat hal mase Raya, hadeyh.
and i got a new handphone today :D its really nice. it's loaned by this person for me to use for MCS, since i'm the PRO. bile my housemates tanye pasal the handphone, i told them the person confessed his love for me and gave me the phone as a keepsake, hahahaha.
(nobody believed it, cehss.)
gotta go sleep.
salam,
mwahness.
i love YOU.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Syahdu di pagi Aidilfitri~
(here i am writing this blog in my room on pagi Raya, with the sound of my buzzing laptop and the voice of Dayah talking on the phone with her family as the background,)
everything was fine last night...after solat Maghrib, all 5 tenants of 15, Glendale Road sat in a halaqah and recited takbir...after that we all jumped around Khaza's room and yelled Selamat Hari Raya!! to each other (we probably annoyed the hell out of our neighbours,hehe). After solat Isya' we all walked to Clashduv to take the raw materials and walked back home to start cooking rendang for Cork's jamuan Raya (after a lot of fuss on which tudung would match Dayah's and Khaza's baju raya). We listened to lagu rayas while we were cooking and sang along (them) and screamed along (me).
slept fine last night, felt somone (Dayah) crept beside me under the duvet just before i died of exhaustion...she was probably homesick or something. Woke up to Mas's excited voice talking on the phone with her family, walked up to shut the door (i think i pushed the door too hard, it banged and Mas was reduced from talking at the hallway to talking on the stairs,adeyh)
Mas peeked into my room after she finished talking on the phone to wake me up for Subuh.. me and Dayah walked sleepily down to Khaza's room to pray. Nisa's probably still sick, poor girl. After Subuh Mas suggested for another round of takbir and we all agreed. berpandukan the book Kelly gave me, as always.
(and then everything just went out of control...)
since i was holding the book, i began the first part of takbir, and my voice started shaking...i broke down and sobbed as soon as i passed the book to Mas..and somehow along the way Mas started sobbing a little bit,too~
was thinking of what I'm going to have for breakfast today...i dont even have any cereal left, for God's sake. thinking about eating cereal on Raya is really tearing me apart..kalau kat rumah...pagi2 bile dah siap cantik2 turun kat bawah ade nasik himpit, kuah kacang, satay,macaroni bakar,rendang...and ade Mama...
and i was thinking about my sisters...smalam diorang ckp nk gi tidur rumah Tokku temankan Tokku sebab sepupu2 sebelah Ayahnda ramai yang exam tahun ni so takde sorang pun balik...mesti kecoh diorang siap2 pagi Raya...diorang pegi smayang Raya kat masjid Telipot ke ye.
bile la agaknye boleh Raya kat rumah lagi...lagi la lama now that i stupidly elongated my study period~
Shallow kadang2 rase diri ni bile fikir, sikitnye derita yang Atiq rase skarang berbanding dengan derita orang lain, tak layak rasanya nak nangis beriya macam ni..
Selamat Hari Raya dari kami di perantauan..
jangan lupakan kami~
everything was fine last night...after solat Maghrib, all 5 tenants of 15, Glendale Road sat in a halaqah and recited takbir...after that we all jumped around Khaza's room and yelled Selamat Hari Raya!! to each other (we probably annoyed the hell out of our neighbours,hehe). After solat Isya' we all walked to Clashduv to take the raw materials and walked back home to start cooking rendang for Cork's jamuan Raya (after a lot of fuss on which tudung would match Dayah's and Khaza's baju raya). We listened to lagu rayas while we were cooking and sang along (them) and screamed along (me).
slept fine last night, felt somone (Dayah) crept beside me under the duvet just before i died of exhaustion...she was probably homesick or something. Woke up to Mas's excited voice talking on the phone with her family, walked up to shut the door (i think i pushed the door too hard, it banged and Mas was reduced from talking at the hallway to talking on the stairs,adeyh)
Mas peeked into my room after she finished talking on the phone to wake me up for Subuh.. me and Dayah walked sleepily down to Khaza's room to pray. Nisa's probably still sick, poor girl. After Subuh Mas suggested for another round of takbir and we all agreed. berpandukan the book Kelly gave me, as always.
(and then everything just went out of control...)
since i was holding the book, i began the first part of takbir, and my voice started shaking...i broke down and sobbed as soon as i passed the book to Mas..and somehow along the way Mas started sobbing a little bit,too~
was thinking of what I'm going to have for breakfast today...i dont even have any cereal left, for God's sake. thinking about eating cereal on Raya is really tearing me apart..kalau kat rumah...pagi2 bile dah siap cantik2 turun kat bawah ade nasik himpit, kuah kacang, satay,macaroni bakar,rendang...and ade Mama...
and i was thinking about my sisters...smalam diorang ckp nk gi tidur rumah Tokku temankan Tokku sebab sepupu2 sebelah Ayahnda ramai yang exam tahun ni so takde sorang pun balik...mesti kecoh diorang siap2 pagi Raya...diorang pegi smayang Raya kat masjid Telipot ke ye.
bile la agaknye boleh Raya kat rumah lagi...lagi la lama now that i stupidly elongated my study period~
Shallow kadang2 rase diri ni bile fikir, sikitnye derita yang Atiq rase skarang berbanding dengan derita orang lain, tak layak rasanya nak nangis beriya macam ni..
Selamat Hari Raya dari kami di perantauan..
jangan lupakan kami~
Thursday, October 11, 2007
un-stableness
you.
you who had always been here there and everywhere when i need you
you who lent me money when that scumbag snatched my handbag and i was too scared to tell my dad about it
you who went to the college mosque in the middle of the night to take my specs for me coz i recklessly left it there
you who always call me at all the right times
you who buy me ice cream from the college shop every other day
you who gave me rides home
you who listens and never judged me
you who forgave me for hating you once
you that my sisters love so much
you whos making my bestfriend the happiest girl on earth
you the older brother i never had
you.
you there in India.
i've missed you.
you who had always been here there and everywhere when i need you
you who lent me money when that scumbag snatched my handbag and i was too scared to tell my dad about it
you who went to the college mosque in the middle of the night to take my specs for me coz i recklessly left it there
you who always call me at all the right times
you who buy me ice cream from the college shop every other day
you who gave me rides home
you who listens and never judged me
you who forgave me for hating you once
you that my sisters love so much
you whos making my bestfriend the happiest girl on earth
you the older brother i never had
you.
you there in India.
i've missed you.
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Jem - Just A Ride
its a soundtrack from The OC season 1, and i love both the lyrics and the song.
Life, it's ever so strange
It's so full of change
Think that you've worked it out
then BANG
Right out of the blue
Something happens to you
To throw you off course
and then you
Breakdown
Yeah you breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared
don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget it's just a ride
Truth, we don't wanna hear
It's too much to take
Don't like to feel out of control
So we make our plans
Ten times a day
And when they don't go
our way we
Breakdown
Yeah we breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared
don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget it's just a ride
Slowly, oh so very slowly
accept that
there's no getting off
So live it, just gotta go with it
coz this ride's, never gonna stop
Breakdown
Don't you breakdown
No need to breakdown
No need at all
Because
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you all around
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared now
dry your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but dont forget enjoy the ride.
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you all around
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared now
dry your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but dont forget enjoy the ride.
Life, it's ever so strange
It's so full of change
Think that you've worked it out
then BANG
Right out of the blue
Something happens to you
To throw you off course
and then you
Breakdown
Yeah you breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared
don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget it's just a ride
Truth, we don't wanna hear
It's too much to take
Don't like to feel out of control
So we make our plans
Ten times a day
And when they don't go
our way we
Breakdown
Yeah we breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared
don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget it's just a ride
Slowly, oh so very slowly
accept that
there's no getting off
So live it, just gotta go with it
coz this ride's, never gonna stop
Breakdown
Don't you breakdown
No need to breakdown
No need at all
Because
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you all around
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared now
dry your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but dont forget enjoy the ride.
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you all around
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared now
dry your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but dont forget enjoy the ride.
Friday, October 5, 2007
Encik Bubu
I dont have a soft toy/huge bear/anything like that on my bed, just three quilted pillows and a double bed duvet. its getting lonely sleeping in such a big bed alone.
i have this tendency to call any of my friend's soft toys Bubu when i go for sleepovers and sleep with them, tak kire name sebenar diorang ape..kadang2 takde name pun (Kak Yan!! grrr. kena letak name laa!)
i like Kak Iza's Bubu and Taq's Bubu and Kak Yan's Bubu and and and.... *sighs*
i think its about time i go get my own Bubu to keep me company..my ideal Bubu wud have long(er than usual) kaki n tangan, soft to touch, and be a part-beanie, and can lie snugly on me..yesh..i'd want that Bubu. I'm yet to find him though, i looked around town yesterday but none seem to be THE perfect Bubu for me...when i buy one i'm gonna make sure that i really really really like it, baru berbaloi. Sebab i notice soft Bubus are pwetty expensive, *sighs*
sit tight there Encik Bubu, one day i'll come round and get you okay.
mwahnesh.
salam~
i have this tendency to call any of my friend's soft toys Bubu when i go for sleepovers and sleep with them, tak kire name sebenar diorang ape..kadang2 takde name pun (Kak Yan!! grrr. kena letak name laa!)
i like Kak Iza's Bubu and Taq's Bubu and Kak Yan's Bubu and and and.... *sighs*
i think its about time i go get my own Bubu to keep me company..my ideal Bubu wud have long(er than usual) kaki n tangan, soft to touch, and be a part-beanie, and can lie snugly on me..yesh..i'd want that Bubu. I'm yet to find him though, i looked around town yesterday but none seem to be THE perfect Bubu for me...when i buy one i'm gonna make sure that i really really really like it, baru berbaloi. Sebab i notice soft Bubus are pwetty expensive, *sighs*
sit tight there Encik Bubu, one day i'll come round and get you okay.
mwahnesh.
salam~
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
smart.
i stayed up after subuh today especially to make sure i start the day early to go to the Second Year CP lecture at 9 and then to the General Office to book a room for MCS's Iftar on Monday (insyaAllah)
realized someone got into the shower before me so i decided to cuddle in the duvet because it was SO cold, sumpah tak tipu.
woke up, glanced at my watch, and its hands almost sarcastically showed the time to me:
10.30
great. missed the CP lecture.
scrambled off my bed and got in the shower, threw stuff here and there in my room while i was getting ready, at the same time worrying endlessly about my bike coz i completely forgot to move it to the backyard so it's parked in the front lawn, open to anyone to take sebab i didnt lock it to any tiang, just to itself.
okay enough babbling.
so i finally got to the General Office on time and filled in the booking form, only to be told that they'll be confirming L1's availability tomorrow, or earliest possible this evening.
isk.
smalam dah cakap kat kak Ros nak confirm balik hari ni.
inefficient and kelam kabut, i hate first times.
well.
at least i'm learning.
so i went to the Student Center tu buy a thank you card for Kak Cikin and Kak Rose (kak Ros and Kak Rose are two separate entities) and also some other stuff - only to find out at the counter that i left my purse dalam kekalutan nak siap2 tadi.
naturally.
thats so me.
so i went to Boole Library to borrow Vander's Human Physiology, praying hard that the receptionist'll let me in anyways eventhough i dont have my student i.d. with me to scan my way through.
i miss studying, weird as it sounds.
she was willing to let me in for 5 mins, but then she said i'd need my i.d. anyways to borrow the book.
aaaaargh.
right. so i walked to Boole Basement to do some stuff and saw the super looooong line in BOTH labs for BOTH computers and printers.
SO unproductive and SO not a good way to start a day.
well. at least i booked the room.
anyway its only 12.46pm so i still have time to do things to make sure today isnt completely wasted.
so i hereby announce today LAUNDRY DAY, to wash the clothes in the almost full super-sized Argos laundry bag.
will go up to campus again to borrow Vander's later on today insyaAllah.
have a nice day people.
mwahness.
salam.
realized someone got into the shower before me so i decided to cuddle in the duvet because it was SO cold, sumpah tak tipu.
woke up, glanced at my watch, and its hands almost sarcastically showed the time to me:
10.30
great. missed the CP lecture.
scrambled off my bed and got in the shower, threw stuff here and there in my room while i was getting ready, at the same time worrying endlessly about my bike coz i completely forgot to move it to the backyard so it's parked in the front lawn, open to anyone to take sebab i didnt lock it to any tiang, just to itself.
okay enough babbling.
so i finally got to the General Office on time and filled in the booking form, only to be told that they'll be confirming L1's availability tomorrow, or earliest possible this evening.
isk.
smalam dah cakap kat kak Ros nak confirm balik hari ni.
inefficient and kelam kabut, i hate first times.
well.
at least i'm learning.
so i went to the Student Center tu buy a thank you card for Kak Cikin and Kak Rose (kak Ros and Kak Rose are two separate entities) and also some other stuff - only to find out at the counter that i left my purse dalam kekalutan nak siap2 tadi.
naturally.
thats so me.
so i went to Boole Library to borrow Vander's Human Physiology, praying hard that the receptionist'll let me in anyways eventhough i dont have my student i.d. with me to scan my way through.
i miss studying, weird as it sounds.
she was willing to let me in for 5 mins, but then she said i'd need my i.d. anyways to borrow the book.
aaaaargh.
right. so i walked to Boole Basement to do some stuff and saw the super looooong line in BOTH labs for BOTH computers and printers.
SO unproductive and SO not a good way to start a day.
well. at least i booked the room.
anyway its only 12.46pm so i still have time to do things to make sure today isnt completely wasted.
so i hereby announce today LAUNDRY DAY, to wash the clothes in the almost full super-sized Argos laundry bag.
will go up to campus again to borrow Vander's later on today insyaAllah.
have a nice day people.
mwahness.
salam.
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