i find it rather stupid that it took me so long to realize why i've been taking everything everyone did too far and why every wrong vocab uttered cuts deep in my chest.

i'm rarely homesick, if ever at all. but when it comes, it slams me hard to the ground.

Raya is coming, and facebook and twitter and blogposts are flooded with Raya-related things, and i'm not going to be in the family pictures for yet another year. this is the fourth Raya away, and it's starting to take a toll on me.