i'm just going to do this

i've considered this for a very long time but i never got the courage to do it for real. i'm not exactly what people would define as coherent, but i really like writing, and i had loads of fun with this blog. but it's beginning to bug me a little bit, that more and more of people who actually know me are reading this blog. it makes me feel self-conscious of them judging what i write, and me in general. this, and many more reasons. 

i don't intend to make this a melodramatic end. i'm hoping it to be a well-told closure, but i don't think i can ever achieve that.

for family and friends, you'll always know what i'm up to through facebook, i think. and to dear lurkers, thanks for reading and making me feel like i actually am capable of being -somewhat- interesting.

it's been more than a year, and i'd miss my Bubble Bath so much, especially since Kakwe bought me these notebooks with polkadots on it that have 'i like a bubble bath' written on them that i now use everyday.

i decided against this decision a few times for my readers, but i'm doing this now for me.

i'll leave this post here for a couple of weeks and then make the whole blog fully private afterwards. i will keep the blog for the sake of the memories it holds, but i won't be writing on it.

this is way longer than i intended it to be, and i have a class at two.

Goodbye :]

hearts

Atiqah

i just need to get this out of my system

i was queueing up to print my notes in the library when the printer was running out of paper. so the lady who was printing at that moment went to get a librarian to fill it back up. the librarian on duty was this old man that i..well..dislike, because he makes a huge fuss about EVERYTHING and he's very loud and he scolds students like we're children. maybe old age was all that happened to him, but still. it's annoying. anyway.

so he came up to fill the papers when it was my turn to print, so i gave way for him to fill the papers and didn't send my documents into the printer just yet. this was, until he said it was fine for me to go on and send the documents to the printer. i was like 'no..it's okay. i can wait.' and he was all 'no..you can send the documents in.' so i sent the documents into the printer, for i am one who does not take interest in bickering with an old man. the printer then didn't print the papers - now, you see, from experience, i know that when the 'attention' light flashes on, i have to press the green button twice. so i held out my hand to press it, and then the (GENIUS) old man scolded me;

"NO! No, don't touch anything!"

(well, just so you know..there is also a piece of notice stuck on the printer that BLATANTLY says 'IF RED LIGHT FLASHES PRESS THE GREEN BUTTON TWICE')

not wanting to hurt his (HUGE) ego, i just waited to see what in the world he wanted to do to make the printer work after he's done filling in the papers. 

after he was done with the papers, he turned to the printer and stared at it, while i stared at him. the printer, by now, is blatantly telling him to press the green button and i was itching to press it because i was running late. then this woman who was queueing (i think she's in her late 30s) came up and told him this is what he should do, and then went the hell on and pressed the green button. but she forgot to press it twice, so he said;

Annoying Old Man : you're telling the printer to change something. it shouldn't be changing anything.

Annoyed Woman : well, that usually works anyway.

Annoying Old Man : what is it that you're printing? are they diagrams? those usually take longer.

Pretending to be Patient Atiqah : nope. just Word documents.

after another minute of blocking me from the printer and staring at it, the Annoying Old Man finally decided to press the green button and then it began printing straightaway, obviously. and then he just stood there, and stared at the documents i was printing at, and PICKED IT UP ONE BY ONE TO SEE WHETHER THEY'RE DIAGRAMS OR NOT SO HE CAN PROVE HIMSELF RIGHT.

well, they are blardy word documents as i already TOLD him they were, of course. and then he pointed out to these forms i was printing that has grey blocks in it and claimed that those were what caused the jam. and then proceeded to watch the rest of my documents being printed (blatantly to see whether i had diagrams) despite me telling him he doesn't have to wait.

oh-my-GOD, there's nothing WRONG with being wrong. you're like eighty and you're dealing with technology so NOBODY's going to judge you! AHH..so frustrating.

i respect that people get wiser as they age, but really. it doesn't mean that they'll be right at everything.

bye.

whoa

i just logged on to my online bank account to pay the phone bill, and i was shocked to see the balance written on the screen. usually when i see a huge amount of money in my bank account, i'd quickly bring myself back to reality by reminding myself that it's obviously the girls banking in the house rent to me. but NO. i already paid the rent to Lily last week. this money is MINE. 

oh-dear-God.

true enough, when i checked the details, there it was, in gorgeous black letters;

Details : Majlis Amanah Rakyat

the perkakas and book allowences are IN, yo!

*deep breath*

Alhamdulillah..

ggggaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh

sape nak ikot gi Scotland + Turkey????

help

tell me how to change the setting of my camera so my pictures won't have this much noise in it.

hari ni hari Isnin.

i haven't been replying to people's texts....again. it's just not my favourite thing in the world...i'm sorrryyyy.

i got home from the library at around eight tonight. i'm gaining momentum in my studying, which is good. but at the same time, i'm also panicking from realizing the load of material this semester has. it's quite a shocker to my brain, seeing that i spent a whole year studying just one blardy subject.

however, having said that, i like having loads to learn, and worrying about my studies. i feel more like myself this way. besides, i think i kinda like neuroanatomy. but i still hate biochemistry, obviously.

maybe i'll blog more frequently once the brain and spinal cord cease to be fascinating to me..haha.

i miss this woman. things aren't the way they used to be three years ago, obviously. she now lives a four hour bus ride away from me, instead of in a room two minutes walk away from mine. but such is life. friendships fade, and people have to move on.

my 'Art is the Cure' tshirt came in today, and it's nice and comfy and just the right size for me. yeay!

later, lurkerz. xx.

p.s. SEVENTY views today??! what's going on??

Raya in Cork

here be some pictures for ye, i haven't been inspired to write anything of late~