f.u.t.u.r.

I was blog-surfing, stumbled into a lot of my friends' blogs, with many different approaches towards life, and many different objectives to be blogging..

it brought me back to who i wanted me to be, before Summer, before Malaysia, before....


oh.


Kak Nang was so right. she knew this would happen,

Akak, i just dont have the strength to, i dont know where to start, and when i do start, i dont know how to stick to it, macam trapped in a fierce ocean wave, drowning, gasping for air~

i dont think it's healthy to only be that person when i'm around the right people, and transform into the old me when not..i'm too weak to stand my ground when i'm alone..i dont see it as hypocrisy, as i really felt it, i was honest and sincere and true...but i'm sure everybody else will just assume that that's what it is, that's who i am...a hypocrite.

i feel like all i do is give a bad name to the rest of the people choosing this road, jalan yang berbukit dan berbatu, the one less travelled by~

bukit iman dan futur Atiq sangat tinggi...i dont think it qualifies as bukit anymore, its gunung...Gunung Everest...


Astaghfirullahalazim...


what in the world have i done?