i cant sleeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppppppp

it's nearly FOUR THIRTY in the morning. it's like i'm in an insomniac battle with the girl in the next room. Kakak always sleep late. can this be in the gene?

but i have a reason to be unable to sleep. a very good reason. the purpose of this blog post is so i wont be thinking of the reason. so reason; go.away.just go.out.now.

i finished reading Looking for Alaska...i've to say, it's not as great a book as i expected. but then again, maybe i put too high an expectation for it. i dont know. there's WAY too much smoke n booze in it, reading it makes me dizzy. just kidding, i was dizzy cuz i'm never not dizzy.

the book is good in that it taught me of the non-believers' view of death, and how they see us, the believers, and our view of death. it taught me of the very good education system they have in the States. it taught me about life, of how screwed up some people's lives are, and hence how i should appreciate mine. and very much so, it taught me that i should not be afraid to seek the Great Perhaps. even if the Great Perhaps is the road less trodden black. and when i get there, and it's not all shiny and glittering as i'd expected it to be, at least i can proudly say that i tried, that i've seen the Great Perhaps, and it sucks. or something. it's too late for profound thoughts. my brain isn't functioning quite right.

an excerpt;
'We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreversibly broken. We think that we are invincible because we are'

but despite all these, the book is still too American for my liking.

nak quote hadith logam tp it's nowhere in the netz.

so atiq tak boleh takut dgn the reason. sighs. i hope things doesnt swirl out of control.